Week 12

This week i was having english for engineering presentation on article review, on tuesday, besides that, mathematics for engineering have its test II on wednesday too. So, i plan not to focus too much on my english presentation, but on mathematics. I wrote down my speech during saturday night ad, however, i cannot find it at here, so i rewrote again, after i finished writing, now only i found the original papers. Damn it, waste my time and mental thinking. At that presentation day, i wear my formal trousers and shoe with my cloth inside the bag, cuz my presentation is at evening, but i have to go to school early in the morning. That why i choose not to wear it first, if not sure sweat a lot.

During the presentation, everybody have to speak at least 4.5 minutes, well, at first, i struggled very hard to talk very slow, keep dragging, hope can drag over the 4.5 minutes, HOWEVER! I Cannot! while a few seconds i jam there, quickly i turn to the other pages and grab some rubbish opinion keep talking and repeating, "Ting!" Yeah! the bell rang, i passed ad! haha...our team has 3 members, me, Shao tat, and hou jo. Shao tat and me passed the presentation but hou jo had too less points to talk about and scolded by teacher, and he had to repeat his speech again, shao tat gave him our original article, hou jo also drag his points by using the original one. Finally, he succeeded. Very pity him cuz he is sick, still need to do so many things. There are more and more people falling sick nowdays, and our cases of H1N1 are increasing sharply! Our death cases are the 4 times of world death record! How COME! STUPID MALAYSIA GOVERNMENT!

This night, i suddenly became very crazy when talking in phone with you. Actually i dunwan remind those problems that we cannot solved for you. But my itchy mouth always want to say about that, maybe because i still dun understand why u dunwan to come. Well, my acting is like a children, so childish.. why i keep to remind myself those problems which ad become a reality and we have to face it but not run away from it. I just hope that u can find some way to satisfied me, but not everytime scold me when we quarrel or act cold to me. I dunwan that, well i cannot force someone changed her characteristic just for the others else, i know it was very stubborn but i still do it. That night i said if tomorrow morning i haven sms back you mean we are gone ad, now rewind back the act, i am so childish, it will never become a reality, cuz midnight i ad sms u back and u also replied me. Yeek, sorry for my action...really sorry...

The mathematics test II at wednesday, i never do any exercise but only read through the formula and example only, not even tutorial questions, haha, in the end, very good, most of the part of the questions i did not know how to solve, even i know the solution very clearly, i stopped half way, why? because my mind is blank, duno why i cannot recall anything at that moment, mistakes and foolish mind spilled around the papers and after one hours, i have confident in 2 simply questions only, others all i am very bad bad bad bad done. Chee yan told me everyone also duno how to do, well, isit others cannot do me also sure canot do? i asked myself, NO! if everybody eat shit me also need eat shit? Its all my fault that i take the tests too lightly recently! Maybe this is the situation at the final exam if i still dunwan take some action! The paper had become a history, i have no choice but to leave it.

Friday is our static assignment deadline, chee yan, kong fai and me have to rush the assignment at wednesday, that mean after the maths test. Well, my static is poor, and chee yan has the better mind of it. If tell me to draw a FBD, free body diagram, i sure will jam there, or take a lot of time, or even spending half life to do a wrong answer. Kong fai ad typed the things inside his computer, whole night i can only watching youtube, playing games, and finally, help chee yan draw again his diagram as his handwriting is very terrible. Useless guy of me.....I like a leech leeching inside the team..FUCK!

For PTPTN, i had passed up my form and information at Monday, there are so many students inside the lecture hall, and there are so few PTPTN stuff, we took very time only get our turn, first reason, some brainless people keep "poke the line"...squeeze inside the line and we forever stand at our position cannot move forwards, the PTPTN stuff is very slow and stubborn, this canont that cannot, ggrrrr, stupid government. Almost 4 hours we lined up there only we can pass our forms. Hopefully i can get it, then my parents wont spend so money on me if any emergency happend PTPTN always act as a backup.

I think i should end my story here first. The picture is Shao Tat and Hou Jo, the 2 guys i mentioned above. Took after the english presentation.

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Saturday Night

This weekend i came back home, taiping, the reason is i need to find saksi to sign my ptptn stuff and my parents signature too. At firday, we have 2 tests at UTAR, one is material science, another one is fluid mechanics, as usual, the questions are out from the solution books, so fluid mechanic have no so much worry. Material science the first question abit tricky, if not chee yan, i sure i will keep it blank ad. Although sometime he is irritating and disagreeable person, but still, he had the mind of science, this one i really admire him a lot. However, after the tests, a big rain came, chee yan and me dun have umbrella, kong fai didnt expect it will rain so heavily, so no choice we have to wait until the rain stop then only we can go back, but kong fai phoned his sister, then only he decided to ask his sister come fetch us.

About 800pm only we start our journey to PJ, because kong fai sister wana take her stuff, amazingly, i have a chance to sit at the car and order Mc like the outstation style. Haha, love it. Suddenly, something happened during the journey, my "little brother", wan to piss off ad, quickly inform kong fai sister to stop if see any rest station, it was so released when i let the fluid to flow trough my duct, arrrr....save my life....

Around 1200am only i reached home, after i print out my ptptn stuff, unfortunately, the papers i used was 70gm, ptptn need 80gm, no choice, i have to wait tomorrow to buy some 80gm papers, then only i can print them out. Play some games before i slept....

In the early morning, i waked up, prepare my things, plan go to school, Pn. Ding told me that headmaster is not around before i start my car, so my mum tell me that we can go find the Dr. Hor from MCA, is not the Dato Ho, is the other one, ketua kampung like that, so we went for him, after checking my documents, he asked:"Are u fruit seller's son?" LOL....he knew our family... i thanks him after he teached me how to sign. Then Chee Yan came to my house to print his things, and i went to sleep after that.

That day, i finished my ACAD tutorial 3 and my english presentation speech, that tutorial was damn irritating, however still manage to finish it within one hour, haha, impressive...dear sms me said that she is busy so we didnt chat anything, after that she phone, i heard her sniffing sound, was very terrible, so i decided, to let her sleep earlier, if dun have a good body, what for we have a nice chat only for today but not everyday....i am thinking that, but she seem very angry, i also duno what i done is that wrong? i am just caring for her healthy and she act coldly towards me, i dunwan quarrel cuz she ad sick, i just pretend nthing happen and smile smile went away. It was Saturday night, it was the only night we can have our free time together, and we spoiled it. YES, u can said is me the one who chased u away and asked u to sleep, but do u think u can chat with me with that condition? i just wan u to recover as soon as possible, the H1N1 cases are becoming worst and worst day by day, esecially ur area also, i am worrying about you, coughing, sniffing and fever all are not allow!!!! If u can recover soon, u wan angry me if i chase you to sleep i also wont mind....i just hope dear can understand....

Today morning i wake up at 700am, then ask myself will u remember ur promise yesterday, then i sleep again, but i waked up again, at 745m....i begin to nervous, after that, u didnt phone me, but is me who phone u, u said u forget to turn on alarm, well, u sure are very tired i told myself, is the early morning, i dun wan we end up quarreling again because it is a small issue only.

U at ur house, i at taiping, actually if u wan, just 45 mins i can reached ur house....we are so closed ad...hope u can understand why i am doing all this last night....I Still Love You...

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Week 11

Today is Monday, going to have 3 tests in this week, Thermodynamic ; Fluid Mechanics ; Material Science. The 3 science subjects gather together and make me suffer. During Saturday and Sunday, i spend my times on games, movie, animation and lastly, some study stuff. Focus on material science since it is the most easy to understand but hard to solve the problems i think. Chemical engineering or i can said all engineering students, sometime really make me laugh, what we studied now is what we so called professional engineering in the future, if you manage to get a good result and performance during your projects. I have 2 friends, one for sure will be withdraw from UTAR because he said he did not belong to this place and this course. Quit is the best choice for him. Another one still in consideration, whatever u made, ur decision will have the supports of mine, this is what a friend can do to you now. Be strong ya.

Tests are coming soon and i don't have the nervous feeling, why? Because i sense no high hope on science and i always do since i studied at secondary school.
Why i choose this course? Because it has a brighter future? Because it can help me earn a lot of money money and MONEY!? Am i really throw my mind and heart into this field, i dun think so. However, soon i realised that, I LOVE I.T. Not It, is I.T. Programming stuff and CAD those things, or whatever things that are practically related to computers, i just have the motivation to study them. Interest is interest, reality is reality, I.T never call for new people but throwing those who nearly professional now. All graduated students from I.T are facing a hard situation in this cruel now. I already choose my course, and i have to walk through it, no matter what.

Yeek falling sick now, i worry about her, because the disease, what we called as H1N1, is spreading violently, and more and more cases start to appear in our country. Saturday night she phoned me, heard her voice i already know that, she is feeling very tired and down. I kept told her that have to take care of herself, not to eat those unhealthy food, not to wet her hair, gave herself more resting time. Maybe i am a bit long winded, but i still wan to say them out, because its my responsibility to take care of you but i cant make it as we seperated.

U are so cute sometimes, haha, cute but still mature, i love that way. Today u send me a picture of yours, you are so beautiful and and always do. Its week 11 now, after 3 more weeks, i will have my final exam, and after that, i will kepy my promises, and come after you. Remember to rest more and recover fast ya, i want you to be happy and good situation always.

Love u, hubby.

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