tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-85851917968542499002024-03-05T23:39:44.922+08:00D3MON & ANGELDeshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11452950257077934079noreply@blogger.comBlogger24125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8585191796854249900.post-23115863253109280862011-06-07T13:40:00.002+08:002011-06-07T13:49:16.751+08:00Its been a whileIts been a while i never update my blogger. Its been a year and many things changed. I am single now, and i am happy with it for now. Freedom is my excuse for me to calm down myself. <br /><br />Last semester i performed badly in my academic, my gpa is lower than 2.0, and my PTPTN is hold for one year, now i need to pay the school fees for one year. I deserved it cuz i am not paying any effort all the ways but only gaming i guessed.<br /><br />Now i had started my industrial training in Silverstone, well i can said the life here is not easy and not fun at all. Because they did not give much things for me to do, and i always sat at there reading some books. Until one day, my supervisor scolded me, and stopped me from reading any books, i can only see chart and do my reports. Boring right?<br /><br />Tday i not feeling well, my head always dizzy, feel like vomiting, but i have no choice but continue stay at here and wait for command. Hope everything will be alright. God Bless Me.Deshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11452950257077934079noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8585191796854249900.post-71531300685082460792010-03-23T22:58:00.002+08:002010-03-23T23:08:48.431+08:00AssignmentToday ICE test, sigh, damn hard! Duno how to do properly, perform very badly...sob sob...cuz i didnt revising very well though, cant blame other people =.= ....now start to do my dynamic assignment already, blur like hell also, the questions simply giv u some pictures and asked we all to make all the assumption ourselves...what the hell, i am totally blur with it....i try my best to think about the question one, but i think mostly they will end up wrongly...haiz i really have no talent in this science field i also duno why i will choose this course which make me so headache.<br /><br />This assignment i need to pass up at friday ad, so have to make it fast and done it. If not no time ad....and then next week i have one chemistry test, wow it will be a nice nightmare for me as it is the hardest among all the subjects for me i think. I really beh tahan this chemistry it make my life so complicated LOL. No choice lo who call me want to become chemical engineering =.= . Choose wrong path again so moody =.=lll...... <br /><br />I end up my relationship with jiayeek, my first love. Reason of breaking, because of my small gas, make her no more feeling towards me anymore. I deserved it. Thanks for giving me such a nice memoriez between us, i will remember it always. Anyway, i still love you, Lee Jia Yeek. I hope if got chance we can be together again, but not for this study years ad. I canont giv u what u want. Really, we dun understand each other enuff. I hope God can giv me another chance to chase u when i work. But i wont force u or me to change our target of life cuz of opponent, cuz loving u is let u go for ur freedom and dream, cannot be too selfish. Well, i have to be clear, and one more time, I STILL LOVE LEE JIA YEEK although i am not her boyfriend anymore!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!Deshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11452950257077934079noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8585191796854249900.post-84324614730956067302010-03-23T08:48:00.001+08:002010-03-23T08:50:08.559+08:00Papa Roach<object width="480" height="385"><param name="movie" value="http://www.youtube.com/v/ArAsPDX2G04&hl=en_US&fs=1&"></param><param name="allowFullScreen" value="true"></param><param name="allowscriptaccess" value="always"></param><embed src="http://www.youtube.com/v/ArAsPDX2G04&hl=en_US&fs=1&" type="application/x-shockwave-flash" allowscriptaccess="always" allowfullscreen="true" width="480" height="385"></embed></object><br />Here today<br /><br />Gone today<br /><br />Hurry up and wait<br /><br /><br /><br />I'm never there<br /><br />For you or me<br /><br />Can't you read<br /><br />The story of our lives?<br /><br /><br /><br />Death to me<br /><br />And life for you<br /><br />Something isn't right<br /><br /><br /><br />And I need some space<br /><br />To clear my head<br /><br />To think about my life<br /><br /><br /><br />And I can't be alone<br /><br /><br /><br />I just need some space<br /><br />To clear my head<br /><br />To think about my life<br /><br />With or without you<br /><br /><br /><br />We fight it out<br /><br />We work it out<br /><br />Give me some ti-i-ime<br /><br />To unwind (x 2)<br /><br /><br /><br />I must confess<br /><br />I'm falling apart<br /><br />Breaking your heart<br /><br />Crying with you on the phone<br /><br /><br /><br />We're walking<br /><br />On thin ice<br /><br />And I hope it doesn't break<br /><br /><br /><br />I just need some space<br /><br />To clear my head<br /><br />To think about my life<br /><br />With or without you<br /><br /><br /><br />We fight it out<br /><br />We work it out<br /><br />Give me some ti-i-ime<br /><br />To unwind<br /><br /><br /><br />We fight it out<br /><br />We work it out<br /><br />Give me some ti-i-ime<br /><br />With or with out you<br /><br /><br /><br />Mile by mile<br /><br />We're farther apart<br /><br />And it's one empty bottle<br /><br />And two broken hearts<br /><br /><br /><br />Night after night<br /><br />We are falling apart<br /><br />Now it's two broken bottles<br /><br />And four empty hearts<br /><br /><br /><br />Decompression<br /><br />Depression period<br /><br />Decompression<br /><br />Depression period<br /><br /><br /><br />Decompression<br /><br />Depression period<br /><br />Decompression<br /><br />Depression period<br /><br /><br /><br />And I need some space<br /><br />To clear my head<br /><br />To think about my life<br /><br />With or without you<br /><br /><br /><br />I'm never there<br /><br />For you or me<br /><br />Can't you read<br /><br />The story of our lives?Deshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11452950257077934079noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8585191796854249900.post-30163040789673288832010-03-12T09:54:00.002+08:002010-03-12T10:01:47.403+08:0012th March 2010Today is friday, i woke up at morning. Today i skip all classes. Too boring for me. So didnt go. Tmr is maths test. I am still slagging around. No Mood to study. No mood to think. Juz wana play game. Recently cant chat nice with her. Duno why, maybe because of far distance relationship. Not like other people, they can see each other everyday, so they can happy dating. For me, i am suck in this. I hope i can crawl over this uni life, and when i start to work maybe i can live together with her. But she told me before she will be stay at her house. So, maybe i think our chance is limited to do that already. <br /><br />Sigh, i felt quite lost during this semester. Relationship and homework make me dizzy. Why sometimes i do something for her she had no sense at her. And juz said i am busy, sorry cant entertain u. WTF! I No need u to entertain me, a couple is when the other one find u, u should be happy right? Now u think that sms me is entertain me only? If u sms with me not happy at all then what is the point now? Think properly la....swt...sometimes also duno how to explain to her, when wan explain then start quarrel, wth....never giv me a chance to say for myself de meh.......<br /><br />If the condition remain like this, i think i need to find some way to solve this problem ad...if not happy with me, why dun we juz break and i let u go ad....jian song will suit u more better i think since he so near u and care about u...i am juz a jerk...sien nia...everyday like dunwan dunwan chat, when chat like very pek cek...i dun like this kind of feeling lar...tired...i wan be like lsat time, but i think it is impossible ad...should i let her go? or not? maybe i should.......Deshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11452950257077934079noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8585191796854249900.post-77373725203787640672010-02-26T11:24:00.002+08:002010-02-26T11:41:17.363+08:00UlcerWell, sunday i went back to genting klang, setapak again. As my camper life begin again for a after a week of chinese new year holidays. I bought 2 bus tickets, one for me, another one for cheeyan. We went back here at morning 11.50am. At that time, my mouth is ad having some minor ulcer. But my mum gave me a chinese medicine which called "西瓜霜", so i took it and bring it to here in case it become bigger wound or what. Yes, unfortunately, it had become serious and more serious. My whole mouth, include the place under the tongue, left side whole mouth and right side too, all full with wound, i can see white wound inside my mouth and when i saw it, i was totally jam because it is toooo many ad, i cant even calculate how many wound i have there in my mouth. I try to drink as much water as possible but it seem not to recover but more and more painful. So, at the tuesday, after my heat and mass lecture class, i gave up continue my class until 4pm, its ad very painful and i really need to see a doctor.<br /><br />I went back to my condominium there, and i seek for a doctor. When he asked me to open my mouth and want to check on my wound, he was like:"Omg! how come so terrible!" Even a doctor would said like this. And then he gave me some medicine and antibiotic to take in after each of my meal. The doctor suggested me to use salt and put inside some warm water mix it and use it to wash the mouth, so that the salt water can help me to kill all the bacteria inside my mouth. But everytime i use the water to wash it, my tears are coming out, Its damn painful lols. <br /><br />Now ad friday, its ad pass 3 days. "I am still alive", LOL, i haven died and the ulcer seem to recover 80% already. Now my problem is, saturday i am going to have an exam, but all my notes are left behind at taiping, i already asked my mum to pass it to me with post laju, but the postman saw i am not around and take it back to the main post office station ad. I had phoned the officer and asked them to bring back my notes on saturday, but that time my exam ad finish lu lols. So lucky kong fai borrow me some of his notes and that, i can still manage to survive. Its already week 6 at my second semester and i have no mood to study at all. I had no interested in all these subjects and now i AM TOTALLY HATE MY SUBJECTS. I had made some wrong decision ad. But i guess there is no turning back. <br /><br />Recently i duno why i keep say something funny to dear, now everytime when i smsed her she seem not to be welcome me. I seldom see she smile and laugh at me ad. Maybe my words had hurted her alot. I am trying my best to let u happy, but juz sometime some opinions different make us very misunderstanding and confusing. I hope dear dun always so moody towards me, i know i am wrong, and i giv u my sincerity apology. Sorry dear and please forgive me. I duno what happen to us these few days, u was like busy around, and i was like seek too much of ur love maybe? But i think we shall not have any problem, maybe i think too much. These week had caused me a lot of problem and i am tired of it. Bad week i had. Sigh.Deshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11452950257077934079noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8585191796854249900.post-21096375266023777092010-01-22T23:19:00.002+08:002010-01-22T23:31:01.117+08:0022 Jan 2010Well, on 18th Jan 2010, my uni open for trimester. I had prepare all my things before that day and went back here. Start my new semester again. Same like always, busy lecture and tutorials fill up all my time slot. The worst thing is all the 6 subjects are science subjects, i can imagine all the mathematics , theory, and formulas are waiting me this dumb dumb uni student to memories it. Headache, i don't want to be fail in any one of the subjects here. God bless me please. <br /><br />Well, i duno what happened to my hand phone. The maxis company send a message to me and said that my JPN no. had error and asked me to phone them for further information. So i did phoned them and surprisingly, they told me that my hand phone no. is not under my name and they will close my hp. line if i didnt change the name to mine before 04/ 02/ 2010. So i phoned my mum and ask her to go to maxis center and settle the things for me. But the officers there told my mum that i canot change it since the name is not belong to me. So i had been force to change my hp. no i think. I think one day or two i will go to buy a new hp. no and register under my name. Why so weird that this no. does not belong to me!? Waste my time and money, somemore i ad get used to this no. ad. Suddenly wan me to change it. SO WEIRD!<br /><br />Recently dear is having her final exam, well i wish her all the best. Sometimes i miss her and then sms her, but actually i prefer to let her be alone cuz i hope she can focus well and study well. Dunwan to disturb her. But night time dear wish me can find her as she also need some time to rest. I find her and we chat nicely and happily. I saw her blog i can find that dear is really do love about me. I am so happy when i read her blog, and i can know what was happening at her place and what she think about some problems and us. Well i did many stuff that cannot satisfied her, i can change and i hope she can giv me some chance and time too. <br /><br />Almost reach CNY ad, i will be going back home, i really hope that i can meet up with dear at that time. Miss u~~Deshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11452950257077934079noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8585191796854249900.post-32867806266750076162010-01-10T09:22:00.001+08:002010-01-10T09:22:42.213+08:00Simply story烛光晚餐。桌两边,坐了男人和女人。<br /><br /> “我喜欢你。”女人一边摆弄着手里的酒杯,一边淡淡地说着。<br /><br /> “我有老婆。”男人摸着自己手上的戒指。<br /><br /> “我不在乎,我只想知道,你的感觉。你,喜欢我吗?”<br /><br /> 男人抬起头,打量着对面的女人。<br /><br /> 24岁,年轻,有朝气,相当不错的年纪。<br /><br /> 白皙的皮肤,充满活力的身体,一双明亮的,会说话的眼睛。<br /><br /> 真是不错的女孩啊,可惜。<br /><br /> “如果你也喜欢我,我不介意作你的情人。”女人终于等不下去,追加了一句。<br /><br /> “我爱我妻子。”男人坚定地回答。<br /><br /> “你爱她?爱她什么?现在的她,应该已经年老色衰,见不得人了吧。否则,公司的晚宴,<br /><br />怎么从来不见你带她来……”<br /><br /> 女人还想继续,可接触到男人冷冷的目光后,打消了念头。<br /><br /> 静……<br /><br /> “你喜欢我什么?”男人开口了。<br /><br /> “成熟,稳重,动作举止很有男人味,懂得关心人,很多很多。反正,和我之前见过的人不 同,你很特别。<br /><br /> “你知道三年前的我什么样子?”男人点了颗烟。<br /><br /> “不知道。我不在乎,即使你坐过牢。”<br /><br /> “三年前,我就是你现在眼里的那些普通男人。”男人没理会女人,继续说。<br /><br /> “普通大学毕业,工作不顺心,整天喝酒,发脾气。对女孩子爱理不理,还因为去夜总会找 小姐,被police抓过。”<br /><br /> “那怎么……”女人有了兴趣,想知道是什么让男人转变的。<br /><br /> “因为她?”<br /><br /> “嗯。”<br /><br /> “她那个人,好像总能看到事情的内在。教我很多东西,让我别太计较得失,别太在乎眼前的事,尽量待人和善。那时的我在她面前,就像少不更事的孩子。那时真的很奇怪,倔脾气的我 ,偏偏最听她的话。按照她说的,接受现实,我知道自己没用,就努力工作。那年年底,工作上 稍微有了起色,我们结婚了。”<br /><br /> 男人弹了弹烟灰,继续说着。<br /><br /> “那时,真是苦日子。两个人,一张床,家里的家具也少得可怜。知道吗?结婚一年后,我才给她买了第一枚钻戒,存了大半年的钱呢。当然,是背着她存的。若她知道了,是肯定不让的 。”<br /><br /> “那阵子,因为烟酒弄得自己身体不好。大冬天的,她每天晚上睡前还要给我熬汤喝。那味 道,也只有她做得出。”<br /><br /> 男人沉醉于回忆里,忘记了时间,只是不停地讲述着往事。<br /><br /> 而女人,也丝毫没有打断的意思,静静地听着。<br /><br /> 等男人注意到时间,已经晚上10点了。<br /><br /> “啊,对不起,没注意时间,已经这么晚了。”男人抱歉地笑了笑。<br /><br /> “现在,你可以理解嘛?我不可能,也不会,做对不起她的事。”<br /><br /> “啊,知道了。输给这样子的人,心服口服了!”女人无奈地摇了摇头。“不过我到了她的 年纪,会更棒的。”<br /><br /> “嗯。那就可以找到更好的男人。不是吗?”<br /><br /> “很晚了,家里的汤要冷了,我送你回去。”男人站起身,想送女人。<br /><br /> “不了,我自己回去可以了。”女人摆了摆手。“回去吧,别让她等急了。”<br /><br /> 男人会心地笑了笑,转身要走。<br /><br /> “她漂亮嘛?”<br /><br /> “……嗯,很美。”<br /><br /> 男人的身影消失在夜色中,留下女人,对着蜡烛,发呆。<br /><br /> 男人回到家,推开门,径直走进卧室,打开了台灯。<br /><br /> 沿着床边,他坐了下来。<br /><br /> “老婆,已经第四个了。干嘛让我变得这么好,好多人喜欢我呀。搞不好,我会变心呀。干 吗把我变得这么好,自己却先走了?我,我一个人,好孤单呀……”<br /><br /> 男人哽咽地说着,终于泣不成声。<br /><br /> 眼泪,一滴滴从男人的脸颊流下,打在手心里的相框上。昏暗的灯光中,旧照片里弥漫着的是已逝女子淡淡的温柔。Deshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11452950257077934079noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8585191796854249900.post-10919137626462501802010-01-04T22:08:00.005+08:002010-02-21T11:03:21.262+08:003th Jan 2010<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjE9ZGGcE66HUwLY9eDcFox-a9SZ2E08Ufx2C_g3keORof1IEMHwDwvN5xg01nELSdgpUWdRbf2skUB-h_vrFdmQxsW7Xu8X9NR6UsEBqGqWmiI5GIFjxkO58X_4QO4aR-39aWIRdTa14A/s1600-h/DSC02704_%E5%89%AF%E6%9C%AC.jpg"><img style="float:left; margin:0 10px 10px 0;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 240px; height: 320px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjE9ZGGcE66HUwLY9eDcFox-a9SZ2E08Ufx2C_g3keORof1IEMHwDwvN5xg01nELSdgpUWdRbf2skUB-h_vrFdmQxsW7Xu8X9NR6UsEBqGqWmiI5GIFjxkO58X_4QO4aR-39aWIRdTa14A/s320/DSC02704_%E5%89%AF%E6%9C%AC.jpg" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5440526873124971346" /></a><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhQBN5wLHpP1GBvW1sR-XBXqAlozXjqbt_TY9S08b2z1uNBe_YjON58ogQcEXRPRPe7rbsDlJgXulFoY0hIYo-N_oTRYQvdZ1nkMOX0BUmFujOMyMn6VJHxMAn0_vM-jztI1U2AaPv0YmI/s1600-h/DSC02700_%E5%89%AF%E6%9C%AC.jpg"><img style="float:left; margin:0 10px 10px 0;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 240px; height: 320px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhQBN5wLHpP1GBvW1sR-XBXqAlozXjqbt_TY9S08b2z1uNBe_YjON58ogQcEXRPRPe7rbsDlJgXulFoY0hIYo-N_oTRYQvdZ1nkMOX0BUmFujOMyMn6VJHxMAn0_vM-jztI1U2AaPv0YmI/s320/DSC02700_%E5%89%AF%E6%9C%AC.jpg" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5440526868388780002" /></a><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEi2vXGCwC2qz66sYpq6dRWHE-AFtZCwxl3HWhj8CEmKLQfFV59yKm5-sHFV_9GKPnV5TNiGnVUCOqFV3D_QOsqzg1oi3ShK87vzseO_3yn5-WEnjXCDa0tvYFbs-J0LbbjDgi3h9xhtodA/s1600-h/DSC02693_%E5%89%AF%E6%9C%AC.jpg"><img style="float:left; margin:0 10px 10px 0;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 240px; height: 320px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEi2vXGCwC2qz66sYpq6dRWHE-AFtZCwxl3HWhj8CEmKLQfFV59yKm5-sHFV_9GKPnV5TNiGnVUCOqFV3D_QOsqzg1oi3ShK87vzseO_3yn5-WEnjXCDa0tvYFbs-J0LbbjDgi3h9xhtodA/s320/DSC02693_%E5%89%AF%E6%9C%AC.jpg" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5440526857713131058" /></a><br /><br />Well its new year now, so this saturday i am free and she is free also. I dunwan miss any chances that we can be together as when the time i go back, its will be quite a long time that we cannot meet each others. So i decided again i wan another dating. <br /><br />This day morning i wake up at 530am, lol i cant sleep well as i always wake up at 400am cuz i need help my dad work. So today as usual i also wake up earlier and play some games. At 7am something i go prepare my things and wan depart ad. Maybe dear is too tired so i sms her that i want to come now, but she didnt reply me, Maybe over slepy? So i dun care i depart myself ad, hope that when i reached there she will be awake lol. But after that i have proved that i was wrong, she just now was bathing not sleeping. I am so silly. <br /><br />So i reached there and found her new house XD. yeah i did it hahaha. i waited her and after that she fetched me go penang. Wow, i was so comfortable when i sit her car. haha...i duno why the pengajian will failed her so many times when the time she take the exam, but i think that she is good!!!!!! And dun say me hamsap, i found that dear like to wear short skirt, which show out her beutiful legs, OMG i was gonna crazy as dear legs is so pretty XD really one i didnt bluff =.=. I love it lol.....i am very hamsap zzzz<br /><br />so she did bring me go her hostel, hmm, kinda old there and a bit dirty due to her housemate which is not responsible. Haiz, boys are always like that =.=. all is boys fault, hahahha. well i did not went upstair as there are somebody at there. So we just stay at bottom and i take a look on the surrounding, i can imagine during night it will be terribly scary as there are no light at all =.= since there are so many bangladash there it is dangerous to go outside alone at night...geli~~~<br /><br />after that we went to gurney shopping and have a nice movie that is chipmonk!!!!!!! LOL it was so cute, however dear also watched before ad, haiz so wasted if we 2 also never watched before sure will be interesting LOL. I regret that i didnt buy a couple sit but sit seperately, dear hands need to be streth only can reach me so painful ... dam me.. i am so stupid....<br /><br />HOHO, after movie dear bring me go beach, wow it was very nice since there are quite a long time i didt go beach ad!!!!! Well i hugged her waist and walk at the beach then we sit at the sand took some pic, aww i looked dam stupid and ugly in the pic =.= but nvm this is our memory i should appreciate it always LOL. Time goes by, our love are bond stronger. Love u....my wife yeek XDDeshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11452950257077934079noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8585191796854249900.post-78842627401670093712010-01-04T21:48:00.009+08:002010-01-04T22:07:43.522+08:00Penang trip<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEg5c1XRpOGMXwY8yI9hn4G3VDLVOavTy3ZfQdGOY3GsxmibmRom0BLIXeyqCu-f12tzi8gD2mZW07wFKlDURmXr-N8AMv9TUJHIQnEuVCtQPkmGGb85sNpX5_6bqRUt_HJr70bZKZPBCyQ/s1600-h/22777_1233485688520_1570522496_573268_2114364_n.jpg"><img style="float:left; margin:0 10px 10px 0;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 320px; height: 240px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEg5c1XRpOGMXwY8yI9hn4G3VDLVOavTy3ZfQdGOY3GsxmibmRom0BLIXeyqCu-f12tzi8gD2mZW07wFKlDURmXr-N8AMv9TUJHIQnEuVCtQPkmGGb85sNpX5_6bqRUt_HJr70bZKZPBCyQ/s320/22777_1233485688520_1570522496_573268_2114364_n.jpg" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5422886080850564914" /></a><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjZL8Bwxq9BtPeXPruxM-PwsSfQn4Mz7_xlZb1hfR3jRyJQBu2QLZvhheNZXr0W3gFLAts0wA8ZugxtjmjSPsD3qQlwxSM1VrlPS166WfL7MsPIQ51kDwc24D085-BNRO15KeBTVntN8JY/s1600-h/18546_230804328215_538683215_3125506_3026453_n.jpg"><img style="float:left; 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margin:0 10px 10px 0;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 240px; height: 320px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjM-7rW9aJtIMi9h7DSl_VL1Zk3a1QKyjOwDzlA5Ug_3fdNarEH3SdqYx5FAdAWMLfv4NnhKGumAQz3HJ0yFeaf4IgvzEmOFqCxm0jhgUmVTu_muwIpTeaypgozkvlJk9A6hWSGer1CekA/s320/18546_230804253215_538683215_3125502_4005367_n.jpg" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5422885827301638690" /></a><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiHAplSpUhX6NmJdn5lfs3Jf6JC3xCS3LgLvjFP_ttbSLz6IbFaKFU0jHwLmO_nlDP8EHUGygD-srRYWSbAKmy1kn2Hr-NHFceZqKTewXaspb0NxX1w0yXPupjkpJmP9Zha9z2mVvlH8oY/s1600-h/18546_228031758215_538683215_3113262_2604444_n.jpg"><img style="float:left; margin:0 10px 10px 0;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 320px; height: 240px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiHAplSpUhX6NmJdn5lfs3Jf6JC3xCS3LgLvjFP_ttbSLz6IbFaKFU0jHwLmO_nlDP8EHUGygD-srRYWSbAKmy1kn2Hr-NHFceZqKTewXaspb0NxX1w0yXPupjkpJmP9Zha9z2mVvlH8oY/s320/18546_228031758215_538683215_3113262_2604444_n.jpg" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5422885760197659010" /></a><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhv7oCVdsSKHb-JULHTUvQFrkOow8sJSfR6Ft_BwrECG728wG5ZhtMy8F3cyINpCxgaZrW6NdF2FOx4X_kCDXftD61CBkSUNHImeM8hjch67p9Mfp9Dg_QZeBgxgPLCbZIWAPFKbGRMzIY/s1600-h/18546_228031688215_538683215_3113260_5849449_n.jpg"><img style="float:left; margin:0 10px 10px 0;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 320px; height: 240px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhv7oCVdsSKHb-JULHTUvQFrkOow8sJSfR6Ft_BwrECG728wG5ZhtMy8F3cyINpCxgaZrW6NdF2FOx4X_kCDXftD61CBkSUNHImeM8hjch67p9Mfp9Dg_QZeBgxgPLCbZIWAPFKbGRMzIY/s320/18546_228031688215_538683215_3113260_5849449_n.jpg" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5422885642279578034" /></a><br />28th Dec 2009, yeah today we go penang have a one day trip. Early morning 800am i sit jeyson car with cby, bernard and me 4 person, gathered at xin rou house, then we move on to Jawi, which mean is my dear place, Sungai bakap, wow i am so excited LOL. Around 830am we reached there and we go find a restaurant which is famous of "cai kue" and "dang hun" lol, but it is really good taste man, just surrounding have too many flies make the environment a bit dirty. An uncle came to us and make some joke, duno why my friends them all cant get it and remain silence there which make the situation become very cold =.=. So i started to reply to that uncle, luckily i make the things warm again LOL. I am good at old man stuff =.=lll swt.<br /><br />After that we went to penang bridge and cross over it. We went to Toy muzeum which is very impressive lol. So many toys at there and we have took some nice pictures at there. Hehe i will post it at the top so that u guys can see it and i can share with u all. After that we went to "zi le shi" have asam laksa there, long time i didnt went there and eat the laksa there ad, so very good taste and memorable lol. My friend bernard even finish it within 3 mins. WTF so fast!? Crazy person zzz.<br /><br />After that our pro kenshiro which is qi sian want to makan penang char kue tiao, so we accompany him to find the stall, after we find it, walao we have to wait until like 1 hr 30 mins to eat a char kue tiao which cost us RM 6.50 !!!!! BUT IT WAS REALLY NICE the best char kue tiao i ever ate LOL. <br /><br />So after that we went to QueenBay, hoho here is the climax ad, dear said she will come over and find me. But i waited at there for quite a long time and i become very nervous why she haven come yet, its been very late and weird, i begin to worry >.< i scare something happen i keep walking around, finally!!!!!!!! YeS i met her LOL. But unfortunately we have no place to go and keep walking around, so in the end we stood at a stall and stand there for almost 40 mins to make some hanger which have our name in the phone, i wan giv to her my name one, but she rejected it ! at first i was very angry but i try to control and turn my back to her, calm down myself and smile again. Phew it was close that i didnt moody =.=. I nearly burst when she dunwan take the name of mine. But still, it was my birthday presents, thanks dear, i still like it ^_^<br /><br />SO after that we went to eat together with all my friends, we chat there for like 1 hr then we depart to go home. Before that, i propose that i wan to send her to carpark first, and i bluff her that i have a big gift wan to giv her. So she believe and let me go together with her, at the end we reached the car park but WTF why there is a car waiting her car to move out and wan to park in. So that mean i have a specatator here ad ! DAMN IT! NO CHOIC and i dun care so much ad As that thing is not a shameful thing! I put up my mind and walk straight knee down and "BOOM!" Yeah i did it! i wont said it here but it was the secret between me and my dear yeek. <br /><br />I LOVE U!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!Deshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11452950257077934079noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8585191796854249900.post-64814294279064220602010-01-04T21:28:00.004+08:002010-01-04T21:43:59.604+08:0027th Dec 2009<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjl7u6J7sxC2S0-uQScf0jRMdfDUfmsNtG1YXFj0Ono6egpienGYB4ZiWvE-wavQHgM3BRzkO2Qd1oHXHrxDdMfdN7WIRtXaDbYFeZe5SR4apdCyTHTsYeWTTfo-fHkqKIyP7l4MEUpUgk/s1600-h/26122009093.jpg"><img style="float:left; margin:0 10px 10px 0;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 320px; height: 240px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjl7u6J7sxC2S0-uQScf0jRMdfDUfmsNtG1YXFj0Ono6egpienGYB4ZiWvE-wavQHgM3BRzkO2Qd1oHXHrxDdMfdN7WIRtXaDbYFeZe5SR4apdCyTHTsYeWTTfo-fHkqKIyP7l4MEUpUgk/s320/26122009093.jpg" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5422879867283847922" /></a><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgWcnZ5GSP5n738P5INivmtckP2bkQeH5kgh8NHSV2Al52zzR0QrdZOPg4GRdB8Plwps3R6qAI3yaC5etj7VigvOBBd3P7Hsj67_8pOTuLOWEJWDmDjJMBl6Xhz9GxvZTIIgQD1ORsm_ys/s1600-h/26122009088.jpg"><img style="float:left; margin:0 10px 10px 0;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 320px; height: 240px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgWcnZ5GSP5n738P5INivmtckP2bkQeH5kgh8NHSV2Al52zzR0QrdZOPg4GRdB8Plwps3R6qAI3yaC5etj7VigvOBBd3P7Hsj67_8pOTuLOWEJWDmDjJMBl6Xhz9GxvZTIIgQD1ORsm_ys/s320/26122009088.jpg" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5422878830269938482" /></a><br />This day is my birthday date, last time friends all used handphone to sms people greeting them happy birthday. But now change ad, all use facebook =.=, that mean if u dun have internet that day, u cant see any wishes from ur friends, weird right? lol...unfortunately, that day, my internet broken down, whole day cannot use it. SO got how many people greet me birthday or none at all i also duno. A peaceful day i have. Cuz nobody sms to me. Just some of them. One hands also can count all haha. But thanks to all who greet me, really thank you. I really appreciate ur wishes. <br /><br />Well, some of my friends do celebrate together with me and cheeyan together as our birthday are close enuff to be celebrate. Old friends talking are so enjoyable although what we do is talking about people bad words. lol we are so cruel and sensitive. Never think of ourselves first before saying people. Haiz, not mature enuff. Well, i did celebrate with my family, they bring me go makan "ho liao", however due to that restaurant have too many customers, we end up with some nonsense dishes as the cheft also busy in cooking ad, so the standard sure lose abit. Abit dissapointed but nvm as long as the family are together. <br /><br />Well, dear is the first one who wished me happy birthday, haha i remembered last year u said it the last one....naughty plan but it make me happy also lol....this year u are the first one...so surprisingly...thank you...^_^ <br /><br />Here are some pic on birthday of me and chee yan..Deshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11452950257077934079noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8585191796854249900.post-90992560338241847832009-12-17T05:57:00.002+08:002009-12-17T06:14:06.042+08:00Memorable<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgK5vIKoDJwA3ZSvIDYA_8czr9cPdB400ggt-jVdBzZSYGch0rnw30_Kl-70lhhKrfcjiEzyaMZTFVHSWf1ixMzW-HFaZuKkIwm0mGDyou-BezvhyphenhyphenNq5hbIpqbSXhv76HSnj_pJGj3NAQ4/s1600-h/DSC02607.jpg"><img style="float:left; margin:0 10px 10px 0;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 240px; height: 320px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgK5vIKoDJwA3ZSvIDYA_8czr9cPdB400ggt-jVdBzZSYGch0rnw30_Kl-70lhhKrfcjiEzyaMZTFVHSWf1ixMzW-HFaZuKkIwm0mGDyou-BezvhyphenhyphenNq5hbIpqbSXhv76HSnj_pJGj3NAQ4/s320/DSC02607.jpg" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5415960790921070770" /></a><br />Looking at the calender, i have decided to take my journey on saturday 12/12/09...nice date huh? haha..early at the morning i drive the lousy big "van" go to her house. Yeah, i saw her mum and talked to her. Luckily her dad is not around, if not i will be scare as daddy always have a very serious face. I saw her mum, sister and little brothers, and promised that i will ensure her safety. I told myself i will be the one who responsible for our safety and i must do it well, so early morning, i bring her back to my house. <br /><br />Same like me, everyone is nervous when u go to ur gf or bf house. A poor attitude sure let his or her parents look down on you. Dear is very good, always smile and be polite, that why my parents said pass. Haha..duno if i go to her house will i get a pass or straight away fail me .... sadddddddddd....<br /><br />Before i bring her come taiping, i am fully plan with all the schedule, however, i am wrong, totally wrong, i miscalculated that i duno the movie time. So i was totally blank when i have nothing to go to as taiping is such a small and peaceful town. I am so sorry about that dear, i did not bring lot of excitement to you though. Just stay at my house and resting there and talked with my brother. I am so sorry if u did not enjoy that. I will done better next time. <br /><br />Maybe i had chosen the wrong movie i think, i did not expect so many people will come to see that movie, twilight. In the end, i feel so shy and many things did not dare to do and try. Cuz i scare that she will reject also as there are many peoples around. Haiz...i am so noob...=.= saddddddddddddd............sorry dear...<br /><br />Well, i fetched her home, in the journey she fall asleep, she is so cute, like a baby, hehe.. when she fall asleep i have a positive and negative mind. The positive one is when she is resting, i can be her guide and bring her home, let her relax and me do the rest. The negative one is i bring too much boring things to her and make her too tired. I am not very good at those things, but i will try...at least dunwan to let u go away from me ... <br /><br />PS:I love you..jia yeek...Deshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11452950257077934079noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8585191796854249900.post-27035049501252072452009-12-07T18:55:00.002+08:002009-12-07T19:11:55.225+08:00My December HolidaysWell, i have back to my hometown, Taiping at december 3th. This time a bit different because i went back by bus, not kongfai's sister's car. So i have to travel by taxi to wangsa maju lrt station, and then sit lrt to masjid jamek, after that sit KTM from there until plaza rakyat, and walked a distance until i reached pudu rakyat, a place which is the main station of bus in kuala lumpur. Quite a long time i didnt exercise my hands and legs, so when i carried my bags for 1 hr, my hands cramp when overnight. LOL, shameful for a boy or man. I reached home and the first things i ever heard from my dad is :"Can u work tmr?" YES! Expected question. Of coz i said yes, cuz i need money also. <br /><br />The next day i work, same procedures and same friends at there, never change. Maybe this is the life of a person who work. Remain all the same for ur whole life. If u dun have the right attitude, u sure died half way. Bored die u. The first day my friends called me go out "yam cha". At first i said ok cuz quite a long time i didnt met with them. But after i fetch my sister back from her work, i found myself is so tired and i finally rejected the "yamcha" gathering. In the end, they called me "Desmond airline" which mean i put aeroplane(cheating).<br /><br />For the next day, i went to clinic and checked my legs, well the doctor said it very serious and need to burn the virus. So as usual,(i have been there before so have experience) he inject the paralyse medicine into my legs, well it hurts but just for 3 or 4 sc...and then he start use a electric fire plug to burn the virus at my legs, it become a small hole, or big hole i also duno, cuz its all red flesh now, left no skin. LOL...sound very geli.<br /><br />When i walked the blood keep squeeze out, but not really pain for me. Just when see the blood coming out it mean i am hurting it. So i seldom walked. I still go to pasar and helped my father to sell, just i didnt move those heavy stuff around, to prevent further injury. God Bless Me. <br /><br />Tomorrow i have to go clinic again to wash the wound, so that it will be clean and wont grow next time. Hopefully this time will fully recover. O yeah, her and me have recover our relationship, well i have known what the problem we have, its all because of me, that why she will so blur at that situation, maybe i acted too cold or looked like not care at all. BUT I DIDNT! I do really care. Just sometime hard to express it out. I am very happy she is back... I love her always. <br /><br />This saturday i will going down her place and find her again as she is still studying now. Not like me having holidays. But the plan is am i going to find her to penang or i want to bring her to taiping, my mum seem dunwan me to bring her come taiping cuz it seem tired. Well, i go there only need 30 mins...i shall think about it myself then. Anyway, it sure will be a dating this saturday ...^^happyDeshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11452950257077934079noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8585191796854249900.post-84050546221002099362009-11-18T00:27:00.002+08:002009-11-20T10:01:32.135+08:00DissapearThese few days were very down, moody and felt lonely. We quarreled, and she said we are in a very unstable condition. Again and again, finally, she said, dunwan ad... i was totally blank at that time..i try to tell myself, its just a joke, but it cant be in this situations. Its totally gone now. I trying my best to persuade her, i want her back...she just simply sms me and said no more ad...i try to drag our relationship for one more day, and she just keep said she is tired, what can i do? I cant force her anymore...the whole morning and afternoon i was thinking, what am I suppose to do...then i have come to a decision, if she really dunwan ad...even if u drag her back, it wont be a good thing anymore, it just become a burden. Yeah, i am thinking like this, and i decided to ask her one more question, the reason why she wan to break, if the reason is the place we stay, i wont allowed her to go. However, surprisingly, she answered me, i wan to fly, i wan freedom. Is this a good reason enuff for me? i asked myself. Yes it is. I have force her too much, its time to let go then.<br /><br />I told myself, i wouldnt let a person who i love to go just like that, i want her back, surely do. But how? Until now i am still strengthless, i cant even go near her when she need me. I have to wait, wait for another 3 years until i go for work. Many people will not believe me or have faith in me, but i will wait, until i have the chance. <br /><br />We break, but we still got communicate. She seem so happy, got problems still talk to me but not the others. I am greatful that she still so take care of me. She always push me to the others gals, haha..i didnt blame her, but i would rather choose her, why am i suppose to give others chance as myself haven giving myself a single chance to be with u again. The things i can give is limited, if she really find someone who can giv her in these few years, then i shall quit, silently, if not, i will want her back come to my side again. As "I love you".Deshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11452950257077934079noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8585191796854249900.post-56737004118107044952009-11-16T11:34:00.003+08:002009-11-16T11:58:05.208+08:00My feelings<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEg2Zgn258BHrrRd8iUVVDWYYetMImyxlp2izzjAavJINLUs410jwKDyZkNl-hEraSYvl9WdInAmI1NvZksLgLA8vXmC14UUfrbOfeY9qz7nGKuYdBAlOzBH_1PfOBOLeJiiQeMvdhSgQAM/s1600/abstract_0108.jpg"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 320px; height: 240px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEg2Zgn258BHrrRd8iUVVDWYYetMImyxlp2izzjAavJINLUs410jwKDyZkNl-hEraSYvl9WdInAmI1NvZksLgLA8vXmC14UUfrbOfeY9qz7nGKuYdBAlOzBH_1PfOBOLeJiiQeMvdhSgQAM/s320/abstract_0108.jpg" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5404545805172063426" /></a><br />This few weeks, i really in a blur situation, everyday repeat the same topic, same style, same life...waiting someone to open a topic for me to start of, in the end, she only said if you have nothing to say about please just close the phone and sleep. Hahaha, it was so criticism...i phoned and i was asked to close phone just because i have no topic, 2 people brains, one squeeze until the brain dry also cant find a nice one so waiting for another who have fresh mind to start it. I duno the reason...because of tired so that you dunwan to begin to think about it? In the end, once and once again, our chat never last for 30 mins, even her birthday, she spend whole day with her friends just without me, you can forget about me just like that. <br /><br />I know the place we stay is far, somehow i try my best to make some topic everyday so that we can chat. You always said u are tired, but whenever i called you i can heard that you chat with ur friends with amazing energy, and chat with me like a died person. Isit so suffering? I asked you something about ur life, u said if i know it it also wont change anything, dun u refuse to answer me just a simply question, so funny isit? If u find that u are lazy to communicate anymore why dun u just speak it out? I called u and asked u why u become like that, u said u didnt. But ur action ad tell me so? I am in a blur situation. Well, u said u are tired, u just sms me one second before, then i quickly call u last night, u didnt answer my phone, today morning u told me that u fall asleep? WTF!? U can sms right away one second u fall asleep!? DUN CHEAT ME LIKE A STUPID KID!!!! <br /><br />U always said i think too much? Well i dun really think so, see ur style of typing message to me at now compare to last time, i laughed at myself. My existent for you means nothing isit? I asked u so many things and so many questions, what respond u give me? " 随便你怎么认为~“ that mean u dun even care about it right? U dun care what i feel and u dun care me got find u or not...finally now i realise it... IF U THINK U ARE SO BORED OF BEING WITH ME WHY DUN WE JUST END IT!!!!!!!!!! DAMN IT!Deshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11452950257077934079noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8585191796854249900.post-42146127620142196192009-10-22T07:53:00.002+08:002009-10-22T08:23:23.521+08:00My Holidays In 3 Weeks<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhmf7ttGYQjWjwSbkqpUIuHDuUMmbTsclkVK4rQVrXDip2k7YHn1c4LEHo2f_TfSTYXj5PUG_iStuJckfvayqSVEHTBhm643HlO2vhnL_b5bW7aP2ILbyOgadqQDE5lk8CBmZ15oGsBngU/s1600-h/DSC01219.JPG"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 320px; height: 240px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhmf7ttGYQjWjwSbkqpUIuHDuUMmbTsclkVK4rQVrXDip2k7YHn1c4LEHo2f_TfSTYXj5PUG_iStuJckfvayqSVEHTBhm643HlO2vhnL_b5bW7aP2ILbyOgadqQDE5lk8CBmZ15oGsBngU/s320/DSC01219.JPG" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5395213344026844610" /></a><br />At first, i plan to have 3 months holidays in my hometown. However, my father did not agree to let me do so. His suggestion is i should continue my study whatever the University gave me, even though its a few subjects only, i should continue because soon or later i do not need to pack all stuffs together and struggle to the end. He has the point that make my mind clear, so i decided to go back KL after 3 weeks holidays. <br /> <br />During this 3 weeks, i am very very lazy, i refused to go out and work rather stay at home. Early morning wake up, i brushed my tooth and face then sit in front of the ladtop for a whole day. Because of these reactions, my mother, my father and my family, very angry about me. So they decided to force me to work. Work as what? Of coz is my family business which need some workers but my father refused to hire which burden the cost of payment. I would like to help my dad of coz, however, i just dun like the style of selling fruits. <br /><br />Early morning 400am, i have to struggle my mind to wake up and become clear after bathed. Then walked to old house which is opposite of me, help my uncle and father to move hundred boxes of fruits from the refrigerator to the small lorry we have. Well i manage to skip this one because i bathed too long time and my uncle had already done with it. We will reached market at around 530am, then we start to move down the fruits from the lorry and parked them nicely at our stall place. Usually is Uncle Yong and my uncle do the moving stuff, my father and I take care of the setting of stalls, like take the chairs out, clean the fruits which we never keep back to home, this is to ensure we save our time. But some of the fruits really need to keep inside the refrigerator if not it will spoiled very easily. <br /><br />After we placed all the fruits and things nicely in our stall, its been already 700am, so its time for breakfast, usually i let my uncle himself go eat first because he do alot of moving stuff which cost a lot of energy, that why he always easily get hungry. Me and my father will go to the second floor to have our breakfast at around 900am. At that time, he will spend some time to wash my brain and talked about my bad things, try make me to change my immature attitude. I have kept that in my mind.<br /><br />We sell our fruits until 1200pm, then only we start to pack all our stuffs and prepared back home. Back to home we need to eat our lunch first then only we will go to old house which only opposite of us, and take down all the boxes of fruits at the lorry and move them into the refrigerator. I complained a lot for this work because i hate i have to wake up 400am so early and end my work at 400pm. Then i spend 3 hours sleeping in my bed, then have dinner with my family. After that, i left only 2 hours for my favourite. My friends holidays so fun and happy, and i have to do this things. <br /><br />My mind kept think about the unfairness until my dear, she told me the reason and good things about it. Well, she has the points, and it make me clear that, what am i doing is just mean nothing compare to my father 365 days work continuously to earn some money and pay me my study fees. "People learn to complain more than they learn to appreciate". This is what i learned in it. Thank you, father, mother, and darling who always take care of my feelings.<br /><br />One of the saturday, i went down to her place and date her. Well, she is becoming more and more pretty, i am proud of her. We went for shopping, eating and watched cinema, hmm, dear is a wonderful girl friend for me, sometime i felt abit regret....<br />Because, she want buy a pair of shoes, but in the end, she did not actually find one, as she said it is too expensive, and dunwan waste my money, even a pencil box, she also dun allowed me to pay for her. I know you are taking care of me, but i would be happy if dear allowed me to spend some little cheap but meaningful things for you. Maybe now i cannot buy a RM 200 shoes for you, but i will learn how to keep money and buy for you in future. Dear had let me see a pair of ring, a boy and a gal, she asked me to choose one, i choose the gal one, and she kept the boy one, now i have put the ring at my pencil box, which everytime i open it also can see her. <br /><br />Now i ad at KL, which mean quite a period of time we cannot meet each other, as she also have school, i guess i have to wait and be patience until we can meet again. Miss you.....Deshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11452950257077934079noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8585191796854249900.post-4967569896780554682009-09-27T22:19:00.003+08:002009-09-27T22:39:34.253+08:00Exam finished<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEivIPfmCmLMpAP5tHUPoVSJsKaA36u3mS6I__CBUmDph8lmITydvYvORqOvYZ9iET7Jg2ezngtE-P1tgHW2r0LaKeE8lxC5MwQ-_0DOOBXea8tZywOe8TK3HSglqeqpb2ekZLIE7_1faSU/s1600-h/Dragonica09092703400600.jpg"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 320px; height: 240px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEivIPfmCmLMpAP5tHUPoVSJsKaA36u3mS6I__CBUmDph8lmITydvYvORqOvYZ9iET7Jg2ezngtE-P1tgHW2r0LaKeE8lxC5MwQ-_0DOOBXea8tZywOe8TK3HSglqeqpb2ekZLIE7_1faSU/s320/Dragonica09092703400600.jpg" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5386156751981194530" /></a><br /><br />After 3 weeks, my final exam have finished. Chemical engineering, an amazing course i have choose to study. The amazing i wrote there suppose to be curse subject. Regret of choosing? Not really.. Somehow just did not do well. The first subject fluid mechanics, interestingly the students have the "solution book" rule the world. Well, i didnt bought it, because i will never think that UTAR "standard" is so high. If i can get a C, i would be very very damn lucky already. Others subjects except the english and mathematics, all i can said:"Terrible!" <br /><br />Actually i am planning to have short sem after this semester. I have registered 4 subjects. However, yesterday i found out that UTAR only offer me 2 subjects. They cancel 2 of them. Kong fai, he plan not to take the short semester and having 3 months holidays soon. For me, i think that if i study first, then i will be easier for the future. I went ask my mum opinions, she said abit waste of time, just 2 subjects, need 7 weeks and more stay there, one week only study 2 days, which each days only 2 hour. Not worth it. Hmmm, maybe i should consider that. I will process my decision after i go to find her after i back to taiping.<br /><br />Thinking of my recent situation, my friends, quite a number of them are quitting of their recent course, reason is cannot handle, cannot cope with it. Fall down..... Shall i do the same thing with them? I am not very sure of it...Maybe i shall wait for the result to come out first? If i failed anyone of it, i shall quit then. <br /><br />This 3 months holidays, what am i suppose to do? what am i suppose to think? what am i suppose to plan? I haven have a final decision of it. But mostly, working is a must for me. Its a chance to pay back my parents maybe? After going home shall be discuss with my father and mum.<br /><br />Recently play a game, called dragonica. Kinda cute i can said. And kinda terrible, because i ad fall in it. = (<br />Sometime during exam, i am so bad mood or can said mad, exam time still can play game. Awwww....weird...but really cant put myself into the mood of study. Its all over now, final also finished already, what can i do? I think only waiting the judges to settle the case now. <br /><br />*The picture i posted is the game called dragonica. The golden color character is me.<br />Hiyuu:"Hi, nice to meet you."Deshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11452950257077934079noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8585191796854249900.post-53514789247112401282009-08-20T19:55:00.003+08:002009-08-20T20:37:18.243+08:00Week 12<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgOqc0dxE3dME8XrYOpewzxjJA_NPYA6MXUTQf5UMsRe1fIP019uhFSyocEB3Emq8nW_FJoVWb8ICFujNwWg5gFqrASB_6Hu-ah2R1wGNRm7a8RdzxCNOsqei83KiDDvgGK8V6glMbUWWY/s1600-h/DSC01125.JPG"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 240px; height: 320px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgOqc0dxE3dME8XrYOpewzxjJA_NPYA6MXUTQf5UMsRe1fIP019uhFSyocEB3Emq8nW_FJoVWb8ICFujNwWg5gFqrASB_6Hu-ah2R1wGNRm7a8RdzxCNOsqei83KiDDvgGK8V6glMbUWWY/s320/DSC01125.JPG" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5372023279182678978" /></a><br />This week i was having english for engineering presentation on article review, on tuesday, besides that, mathematics for engineering have its test II on wednesday too. So, i plan not to focus too much on my english presentation, but on mathematics. I wrote down my speech during saturday night ad, however, i cannot find it at here, so i rewrote again, after i finished writing, now only i found the original papers. Damn it, waste my time and mental thinking. At that presentation day, i wear my formal trousers and shoe with my cloth inside the bag, cuz my presentation is at evening, but i have to go to school early in the morning. That why i choose not to wear it first, if not sure sweat a lot. <br /><br />During the presentation, everybody have to speak at least 4.5 minutes, well, at first, i struggled very hard to talk very slow, keep dragging, hope can drag over the 4.5 minutes, HOWEVER! I Cannot! while a few seconds i jam there, quickly i turn to the other pages and grab some rubbish opinion keep talking and repeating, "Ting!" Yeah! the bell rang, i passed ad! haha...our team has 3 members, me, Shao tat, and hou jo. Shao tat and me passed the presentation but hou jo had too less points to talk about and scolded by teacher, and he had to repeat his speech again, shao tat gave him our original article, hou jo also drag his points by using the original one. Finally, he succeeded. Very pity him cuz he is sick, still need to do so many things. There are more and more people falling sick nowdays, and our cases of H1N1 are increasing sharply! Our death cases are the 4 times of world death record! How COME! STUPID MALAYSIA GOVERNMENT!<br /><br />This night, i suddenly became very crazy when talking in phone with you. Actually i dunwan remind those problems that we cannot solved for you. But my itchy mouth always want to say about that, maybe because i still dun understand why u dunwan to come. Well, my acting is like a children, so childish.. why i keep to remind myself those problems which ad become a reality and we have to face it but not run away from it. I just hope that u can find some way to satisfied me, but not everytime scold me when we quarrel or act cold to me. I dunwan that, well i cannot force someone changed her characteristic just for the others else, i know it was very stubborn but i still do it. That night i said if tomorrow morning i haven sms back you mean we are gone ad, now rewind back the act, i am so childish, it will never become a reality, cuz midnight i ad sms u back and u also replied me. Yeek, sorry for my action...really sorry...<br /><br />The mathematics test II at wednesday, i never do any exercise but only read through the formula and example only, not even tutorial questions, haha, in the end, very good, most of the part of the questions i did not know how to solve, even i know the solution very clearly, i stopped half way, why? because my mind is blank, duno why i cannot recall anything at that moment, mistakes and foolish mind spilled around the papers and after one hours, i have confident in 2 simply questions only, others all i am very bad bad bad bad done. Chee yan told me everyone also duno how to do, well, isit others cannot do me also sure canot do? i asked myself, NO! if everybody eat shit me also need eat shit? Its all my fault that i take the tests too lightly recently! Maybe this is the situation at the final exam if i still dunwan take some action! The paper had become a history, i have no choice but to leave it.<br /><br />Friday is our static assignment deadline, chee yan, kong fai and me have to rush the assignment at wednesday, that mean after the maths test. Well, my static is poor, and chee yan has the better mind of it. If tell me to draw a FBD, free body diagram, i sure will jam there, or take a lot of time, or even spending half life to do a wrong answer. Kong fai ad typed the things inside his computer, whole night i can only watching youtube, playing games, and finally, help chee yan draw again his diagram as his handwriting is very terrible. Useless guy of me.....I like a leech leeching inside the team..FUCK!<br /><br />For PTPTN, i had passed up my form and information at Monday, there are so many students inside the lecture hall, and there are so few PTPTN stuff, we took very time only get our turn, first reason, some brainless people keep "poke the line"...squeeze inside the line and we forever stand at our position cannot move forwards, the PTPTN stuff is very slow and stubborn, this canont that cannot, ggrrrr, stupid government. Almost 4 hours we lined up there only we can pass our forms. Hopefully i can get it, then my parents wont spend so money on me if any emergency happend PTPTN always act as a backup.<br /><br />I think i should end my story here first. The picture is Shao Tat and Hou Jo, the 2 guys i mentioned above. Took after the english presentation.Deshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11452950257077934079noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8585191796854249900.post-9067451797897802572009-08-16T09:37:00.005+08:002009-08-16T10:06:40.945+08:00Saturday Night<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEggwoYJBwE6utbrjEIo9dxUNYB0TcVH5wyzJK53Q4kSyDQVauGrjPo0uxQwG0Hhyphenhyphen_barK-J_V0alUIkEUuLU3J2dSO9Nznb8qrfoy7Hz1fdQ6dmPdtvpRjY4LY775KhYwcg91OTiXLXKzk/s1600-h/I+Give+You+My+Heart.jpg"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 320px; height: 291px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEggwoYJBwE6utbrjEIo9dxUNYB0TcVH5wyzJK53Q4kSyDQVauGrjPo0uxQwG0Hhyphenhyphen_barK-J_V0alUIkEUuLU3J2dSO9Nznb8qrfoy7Hz1fdQ6dmPdtvpRjY4LY775KhYwcg91OTiXLXKzk/s320/I+Give+You+My+Heart.jpg" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5370377223740117666" /></a><br />This weekend i came back home, taiping, the reason is i need to find saksi to sign my ptptn stuff and my parents signature too. At firday, we have 2 tests at UTAR, one is material science, another one is fluid mechanics, as usual, the questions are out from the solution books, so fluid mechanic have no so much worry. Material science the first question abit tricky, if not chee yan, i sure i will keep it blank ad. Although sometime he is irritating and disagreeable person, but still, he had the mind of science, this one i really admire him a lot. However, after the tests, a big rain came, chee yan and me dun have umbrella, kong fai didnt expect it will rain so heavily, so no choice we have to wait until the rain stop then only we can go back, but kong fai phoned his sister, then only he decided to ask his sister come fetch us.<br /><br />About 800pm only we start our journey to PJ, because kong fai sister wana take her stuff, amazingly, i have a chance to sit at the car and order Mc like the outstation style. Haha, love it. Suddenly, something happened during the journey, my "little brother", wan to piss off ad, quickly inform kong fai sister to stop if see any rest station, it was so released when i let the fluid to flow trough my duct, arrrr....save my life....<br /><br />Around 1200am only i reached home, after i print out my ptptn stuff, unfortunately, the papers i used was 70gm, ptptn need 80gm, no choice, i have to wait tomorrow to buy some 80gm papers, then only i can print them out. Play some games before i slept....<br /><br />In the early morning, i waked up, prepare my things, plan go to school, Pn. Ding told me that headmaster is not around before i start my car, so my mum tell me that we can go find the Dr. Hor from MCA, is not the Dato Ho, is the other one, ketua kampung like that, so we went for him, after checking my documents, he asked:"Are u fruit seller's son?" LOL....he knew our family... i thanks him after he teached me how to sign. Then Chee Yan came to my house to print his things, and i went to sleep after that. <br /><br />That day, i finished my ACAD tutorial 3 and my english presentation speech, that tutorial was damn irritating, however still manage to finish it within one hour, haha, impressive...dear sms me said that she is busy so we didnt chat anything, after that she phone, i heard her sniffing sound, was very terrible, so i decided, to let her sleep earlier, if dun have a good body, what for we have a nice chat only for today but not everyday....i am thinking that, but she seem very angry, i also duno what i done is that wrong? i am just caring for her healthy and she act coldly towards me, i dunwan quarrel cuz she ad sick, i just pretend nthing happen and smile smile went away. It was Saturday night, it was the only night we can have our free time together, and we spoiled it. YES, u can said is me the one who chased u away and asked u to sleep, but do u think u can chat with me with that condition? i just wan u to recover as soon as possible, the H1N1 cases are becoming worst and worst day by day, esecially ur area also, i am worrying about you, coughing, sniffing and fever all are not allow!!!! If u can recover soon, u wan angry me if i chase you to sleep i also wont mind....i just hope dear can understand....<br /><br />Today morning i wake up at 700am, then ask myself will u remember ur promise yesterday, then i sleep again, but i waked up again, at 745m....i begin to nervous, after that, u didnt phone me, but is me who phone u, u said u forget to turn on alarm, well, u sure are very tired i told myself, is the early morning, i dun wan we end up quarreling again because it is a small issue only.<br /><br />U at ur house, i at taiping, actually if u wan, just 45 mins i can reached ur house....we are so closed ad...hope u can understand why i am doing all this last night....I Still Love You...Deshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11452950257077934079noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8585191796854249900.post-48203369910708145792009-08-10T21:38:00.002+08:002009-08-10T22:07:36.909+08:00Week 11<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjyO1uSj8d0U9kF_Ae8bg8ulfeEwReWMN4hAoL6lvLVQZowyAcyb3mRAIIsDVomVShM3FoQjE0gMmKkLwVQVpOYTJW8df_M0E6ivghQV04PhAXvlMQ9qQ_4eUKOLmJ6Jj7bbQAo_rf66y4/s1600-h/DSC01107.JPG"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 320px; height: 240px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjyO1uSj8d0U9kF_Ae8bg8ulfeEwReWMN4hAoL6lvLVQZowyAcyb3mRAIIsDVomVShM3FoQjE0gMmKkLwVQVpOYTJW8df_M0E6ivghQV04PhAXvlMQ9qQ_4eUKOLmJ6Jj7bbQAo_rf66y4/s320/DSC01107.JPG" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5368336509127760626" /></a><br />Today is Monday, going to have 3 tests in this week, Thermodynamic ; Fluid Mechanics ; Material Science. The 3 science subjects gather together and make me suffer. During Saturday and Sunday, i spend my times on games, movie, animation and lastly, some study stuff. Focus on material science since it is the most easy to understand but hard to solve the problems i think. Chemical engineering or i can said all engineering students, sometime really make me laugh, what we studied now is what we so called professional engineering in the future, if you manage to get a good result and performance during your projects. I have 2 friends, one for sure will be withdraw from UTAR because he said he did not belong to this place and this course. Quit is the best choice for him. Another one still in consideration, whatever u made, ur decision will have the supports of mine, this is what a friend can do to you now. Be strong ya.<br /><br />Tests are coming soon and i don't have the nervous feeling, why? Because i sense no high hope on science and i always do since i studied at secondary school.<br />Why i choose this course? Because it has a brighter future? Because it can help me earn a lot of money money and MONEY!? Am i really throw my mind and heart into this field, i dun think so. However, soon i realised that, I LOVE I.T. Not It, is I.T. Programming stuff and CAD those things, or whatever things that are practically related to computers, i just have the motivation to study them. Interest is interest, reality is reality, I.T never call for new people but throwing those who nearly professional now. All graduated students from I.T are facing a hard situation in this cruel now. I already choose my course, and i have to walk through it, no matter what.<br /><br />Yeek falling sick now, i worry about her, because the disease, what we called as H1N1, is spreading violently, and more and more cases start to appear in our country. Saturday night she phoned me, heard her voice i already know that, she is feeling very tired and down. I kept told her that have to take care of herself, not to eat those unhealthy food, not to wet her hair, gave herself more resting time. Maybe i am a bit long winded, but i still wan to say them out, because its my responsibility to take care of you but i cant make it as we seperated. <br /><br />U are so cute sometimes, haha, cute but still mature, i love that way. Today u send me a picture of yours, you are so beautiful and and always do. Its week 11 now, after 3 more weeks, i will have my final exam, and after that, i will kepy my promises, and come after you. Remember to rest more and recover fast ya, i want you to be happy and good situation always. <br /><br />Love u, hubby.Deshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11452950257077934079noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8585191796854249900.post-28560012599462530492009-07-26T23:30:00.005+08:002009-07-26T23:54:06.192+08:00Cursing Land<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjs9wAdw_WZG8ZhAr5FFW3eEyTmmz3seaf-G9R4V4MySXgSmLdNXCiG7SI8KzuzMkru-UZ0tjcEmKgojtpv8lajNzsVECmKgeQ_4eB_RP2F3KIrbMUlVN-1aO9f7gaJY7LCKEegBxapA20/s1600-h/DSC01107.JPG"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 320px; height: 240px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjs9wAdw_WZG8ZhAr5FFW3eEyTmmz3seaf-G9R4V4MySXgSmLdNXCiG7SI8KzuzMkru-UZ0tjcEmKgojtpv8lajNzsVECmKgeQ_4eB_RP2F3KIrbMUlVN-1aO9f7gaJY7LCKEegBxapA20/s320/DSC01107.JPG" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5362796771278904802" /></a><br />Came back to Prima Setapak, 9-11 Block C. The place i live since i study at here, Setapak, crowded and noisy place. It was so tired to have a 3 hours journey at the car and i am not feeling well, i am sick. Along the journey i slept, sms with yeek, and have my dinner my mum packed for me before i go, then have my medicine, until 1000pm only i reached here. Back to the UTAR life again, so suck and tiring, everytime came back only got one thing in my mind, STUFF....yeah, a lot of stuff waiting me to finish them. No choice, since foundation already like this, Degree cant even imagine it. Its been 2 month i never went home, this time was a special one, i see changes in the relationship between me and my family, duno why, i see all the positive ways, is it good or bad? I like the feeling. However, my mum sickness doesnt seem to have any recovery, i am worried, what is the problem? what is the cure? what is the reason? what is the solution? my family members all struggling to help her, see doctor, relax herself...still resulted in same condition. Hope she will be fine. Cannot drag too long, it will bring more negative effects on my mum.<br /><br />Father have grown older and older, white hair also coming out. Surprisingly, my mum told me that my daddy has "老花“ which mean "old people short-sighted"...lame i duno how to explain in english, he is working too hard, day by day. Am i capable of helping him to solve some of the house money that need to repay back to the bank after i work. I am still wondering how heavy is the burden. Outsider saw our house will say:"Wow!! Rich guy's son!"...arhh...do u guys ever know the situation behind this tall building? its was hard than u can imagine.<br /><br />Today i was quite happy because yeek had forgive me, but not totally, i still sense that she is still put that thing in mind. I am trying to find some topic to chat with her by sending her some picture i took during the journey to Setapak, she seem reply me in more natural way, good, this is what i want. We discussed about the future where she want to study... surprisingly, she told me that she had 2 choices, one is Kampar, one is Setapak. I know her style, and i know her family decision too. It will always be Kampar in the end. But she told me that need to wait after she asking information about the advanced diploma at her school first. Actually, i really hope that u will sacrifice a bit come to my side. But i cannot so selfish right? Everyone also know that after advanced diploma u need to go degree, well degree for you only offer in Kampar, who will so stupid come setapak for 2 years and then go kampar again. Again and again, i fail to ask her come to my side. But this time i did not felt so sad, duno why, maybe last time ad learn something from the incident when she told me she need go penang. At first i was like going crazy, cuz i come Kampar just to wait u come study together with me, i give up then go setapak study, and hope u will come again. Now, hahaha....now i figured that it was impossible again.<br /><br />That why i said:" This place is such a cursing land! FUCK"Deshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11452950257077934079noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8585191796854249900.post-63734796249990313632009-07-25T09:30:00.002+08:002009-07-25T09:49:30.370+08:00Bloody Hell<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEh7HpTykUlP92z-2G85osJdI6sAUuDyJsWE-PWK_M7Ro3_DxQCnq_qYhre3Rl-QFpGxI0cx3XN2xNVsJHyvbRFI8QsQXTDZE4YTKb437ByEdqG-471_eQ8ConaP1RM-9Ix7VRDgebjmK80/s1600-h/DSC01018.JPG"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 320px; height: 240px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEh7HpTykUlP92z-2G85osJdI6sAUuDyJsWE-PWK_M7Ro3_DxQCnq_qYhre3Rl-QFpGxI0cx3XN2xNVsJHyvbRFI8QsQXTDZE4YTKb437ByEdqG-471_eQ8ConaP1RM-9Ix7VRDgebjmK80/s320/DSC01018.JPG" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5362208967838800898" /></a><br />Recently i was not feeling well, i always get cough and sniffing. At thursday, i slept late, because friday i plan not going to school since it only one lecture, i did not make a mistake because my friends going there all end up turning back with nothing. The lecturer have MC i think. Haha so lucky. However, i duno why that day my head is very pain and i have a bad sore throat. I keep coughing nonstop. At this time, i am very moody cuz i cant help it much. Person who talk to me will eventually end up in quarreling. That why i hurt my dear. I was so nervous until i said something bad to hurt u just because i did not feel well, what a childish and immature act.<br /><br />I am going back home at Friday, i wait until kong fai's sister come take us go seven eleven, and i bought my fisherman, a sugar that can relax ur throat. But it does not seem working at all, i still struggling with my throat. I try to sleep, but cannot, my head is getting more pain. I SMS her, i know i have made her angry about me, i always didnt care about her feeling, that why she never sms me back. We quarreled...However she still reply me in the end, she said to me if not i am not feeling well, she wont even care about me. Yeah, of course u no need to care about me since i never care about you, and always hurt u, i do not have the right to said anything thing. I just admit that i am wrong, and i cant save it from ur mind, cuz it ad happened. I stop sms her...cannot continue anymore, need to cool down myself. I reached home, and quickly take 2 panadols, no use, still pain. So my mum decided take me to clinic has a checkup. The doctor was so scare of me and keep asking me where i came and where i live. I said KL. He got shocked too cuz recently got a Malay school there ad closed due to the H1N1. Hopefully i am not one of them. He gave me some medicine on sniffing, coughing and deman. It cost only RM20. So cheap for the market prize now. Now normally minimum also required RM 30.00. <br /><br />I go bought a mi hun soup, and went to my grandmother house to have a dinner, after i can took my medicine straight away. Ad 2 months and one week i never go home, but my family them never changed, always treat me as good as always. I LOVE MY FAMILY! Everyone are taking care about me, asking me got feeling better or not, so nice of them, i can feel the warmth coming towards me after being so lonely at outside. If i am not coming back this week, i cannot imagine how am i going to survive at there alone as i am falling sick. At middle of the night, i planning to sleep, i never thought that dear will coming to me and asked me my situation. Well, thank you because u still care of me. We have some chat on the phone until my credit run out, at least, we settle half of the problems we faced now. Thank you for still loving me all the way i hurt u so much. I know it was an excuse that i said that i always moody when i have trouble and i will yelling at others people, its time to change, but how? I still have to figured it out myself. And i need you to accompany me all the way to the end. I LOVE U ALL....Deshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11452950257077934079noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8585191796854249900.post-49053067458986126642009-07-19T22:51:00.004+08:002009-07-21T22:58:53.067+08:00Daddy<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhEU3UV-vZ2Xi45uLtrTIfqqvxI0e028Q0Nzp2g-N5x6xGrzuhZIMmEpM9UT8WtYyUa2-TJtis6W1j_G6vuLHWAQWRaYeC0sr52opbdrELhcNPvSxeBKtTTXesoTrhb8T5yDzKGiQzHuW8/s1600-h/DSC00875.JPG"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 320px; height: 240px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhEU3UV-vZ2Xi45uLtrTIfqqvxI0e028Q0Nzp2g-N5x6xGrzuhZIMmEpM9UT8WtYyUa2-TJtis6W1j_G6vuLHWAQWRaYeC0sr52opbdrELhcNPvSxeBKtTTXesoTrhb8T5yDzKGiQzHuW8/s320/DSC00875.JPG" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5360928025329697810" /></a><br />The person who have a special way of teaching me as a good man, is him. Since i am small, i seldom talk to him. Because all my homework stuff, my mum will be the one who take care and always ask the performance of me. The attitude of me at home or outside, also my mum is the one who teached me. Until a certain age, then only i begin to have a close relationship with him. When i was small, i really cannot understand why his mind and mine was so different. Well, when i done something that i think correct, at night, he will suddenly called me go outside the house, and we sit together to have some discussion. We interpret the thing i done just now, then he said out his mind. Sometime i just cannot take it, because it was kinda weird. Even worst, i will ignored it. <br /><br />Time flies and i growth, i realise that the thing he said was true enuff. At a certain age, i have the desire to have some entertainment, like buying a PS, PS2, computer, internet...etc... Of course, i know that, i wont get it just for free, all is money, so the rules for me to buy those things are work with my father. I get it. And he did his promised. He never asked about my academic stuff, all his care is my attitude and problem solving skills. Although sometime i disagree, but i take it as my new style of do it. <br /><br />Until one day, duno why i just think that, working as that, need to wake up at 300am, is kinda not fine. I rejected. I dunwan to work, i lie at home, do nthing, playing games, wasting time. All kind of things. If i do, he will jsut said one thing, u are not worth as RM20. After this phrase, i swear, i must go outside find a job, and prove to him, i am worth than a thousand! I found it, hamper things, and i get my salary, RM1000. I go back home, and this is what i get! Kinda childlish, me...<br /><br />Our relationship was normal, but never quarrel. I respect him. Cuz he is a good daddy. True enuff. But just sometime my inmature attitude spoil all the nice things. I never said:"Daddy i love you." We dun have that culture. Yet, this year, i take the 1st step, call him at Father's Day, wish the first "happy father's day" in my life to him. Amazingly, he is happy, i was shock to see that also, although is just through phone, but i know he sure is happy. I never see daddy will be like that. Kinda unbelievable. <br /><br />This degree, sure is hard. I have a hard time for a few days, a bit down. He phone me. "Try to relax, if canont, dun force too hard, not worth." Well, I heard this from him. Thanks a lot daddy."No problem, i can do it. Dun worry." I quickly replied him. Before he called me, i still down there. After that, i have no worry at all, it was totally different, for you to motivate me rather than others. U sacrifised for your children, teached us thing in a special way. <br /><br />And i am proud to have you as my daddy, the words that i cannot speak out, will be written here."I do love you forever."Deshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11452950257077934079noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8585191796854249900.post-56403932036387756862009-07-15T00:34:00.002+08:002009-07-15T00:57:45.153+08:00"Soul" deep in my heart<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEj4_WHawmou0NYFykqLTYZan2mU3fVptprsN_dmhyphenhyphenoH9qVcPVcUvoz6y98QO5zfK4JMioN0gMDDQvlk2HndO0Z2u-kqIDLa3xlwxf5AQaE3_mV6YOE2vuydULnxdf7Jmz9D8VdSBfpmMds/s1600-h/DSC00795.JPG"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 240px; height: 320px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEj4_WHawmou0NYFykqLTYZan2mU3fVptprsN_dmhyphenhyphenoH9qVcPVcUvoz6y98QO5zfK4JMioN0gMDDQvlk2HndO0Z2u-kqIDLa3xlwxf5AQaE3_mV6YOE2vuydULnxdf7Jmz9D8VdSBfpmMds/s320/DSC00795.JPG" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5358361072848490690" /></a><br />A misunderstanding event, create a path for us to meet. The way u grab my shirt at midnight, calling for help, is the start of our life. My dirty mind, makes me know about you. The way to smile and teasing me, i never forget. Once again, tie, u in charge of it. We meet again. U are so amazing. The feeling is so weird, i cannot understand, what is the reason for me to call u and know about u. Starting from words through phone, we never hear each other voice through it. Until one day, peribahasa was the creator of our love. From now on, I am in deep love.<br /><br />Ur soul was not belong to me. I was happy for a moment, at the time u said u like me. But, not love. At my birthday, i cried, and u are the one who support me with love and care. At the tough moment at SPM, u are the one who give me inertia to push forwards. U never leave me, i never forget. Day by day, my naive had force this relationship to break. My disturbance towards u, resulted in the break in soul between us. The stubbornness of mine, keep me contact with u. Never give up, and always learn things from u. I am not experienced, but, u never rejected me as a good friend. I learn to know u, i learn to understand u, i learn ur life style, i learn ur family, i learn ur pass relationship, and i learn ur weaknesses.<br /><br />Again and again, thousands times i ask from u, can we joined again. U never answered me. Because u dunwan to hurt me. I never give up, because i know, i do love u always. I wan to realise my promises to you, and i dunwan to hurt you. Until one day, i reached my limit, and i sense no hope on us. I wan pull away. Tears fall down from my heart. Deep into the black hole. A warming hand, come to me. Its you. U pull me up. "Han, i need you." This is the phrase i never forget. U are back....back to me..."You have changed..." Yes, i will changed, to a better one. The mistake i done, u never scream, u never yelled, i appreciate that, i changed my misbehaviour, tears should not drop down again from ur beutiful eyes.<br /><br />Our relationship stuck at one end, never raise again. It the limit. I told myself, i must see u, no matter what, or not it the end of us. I max my bold, drive the only vehicle, to have a better future with you. My low-self esteem, i dare not to face u, I am ugly, short in height, no body shape, just a small kid, not mature at all, but u never reject me, always do. Give me support and love. I just love to be with u.<br /><br />That day, the way u hold my hands, the way u hug me, the way u sleep on my shoulder, i never forget and i am confidence, we can be together forever. 3 days, u went for camp, i cant hear u, i cant find u, i cant touch u....i am so lonely...but...i know u sure will come back...and i always believe u...no matter what...<br /><br />I dun care how many guys are chasing after u at ur own world...u are my darling always...and i believe u do...Yes...sometime we did quarrel...but the way u handle problem, i am totally proud of you. Because of this, we always end up with smile. I will never repeat my mistake again. Because i cannot afford to lost you.<br /><br /><br /><br /><br />"Jia Yeek, I Love You."Deshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11452950257077934079noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8585191796854249900.post-24751794084193016492009-07-13T22:00:00.003+08:002009-07-13T22:30:10.775+08:00The way i survive<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhjrtN61t7qfDHTaWXMs8aCsY6cIAKf1MiyY-1hyphenhyphenjPsgfAA4sUZpV6owhn3CNGhyphenhyphenNVEESvZFnNUtTiP2Z77xZNjwbJfrDHifIqgcVi2YSPX_n0DbD3vZ0hMWP6JwFDe7Xt9cDou4fXXrVY/s1600-h/abstract_0073.jpg"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 320px; height: 240px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhjrtN61t7qfDHTaWXMs8aCsY6cIAKf1MiyY-1hyphenhyphenjPsgfAA4sUZpV6owhn3CNGhyphenhyphenNVEESvZFnNUtTiP2Z77xZNjwbJfrDHifIqgcVi2YSPX_n0DbD3vZ0hMWP6JwFDe7Xt9cDou4fXXrVY/s320/abstract_0073.jpg" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5357951907228243218" /></a><br /> "God", most respecting "creater" for the world.<br /> ***************<br /> * G-Generator *<br /> * O-Operator *<br /> * D-Destroyer *<br /> ***************<br />I was born to this world, as a small raindrop, i never die, i never stop, i never miss. Along my journal, i grow, bigger, heavier, and denser. From the cerulean blue color, my habitat changed, to silver color. Millions of eyes staring at me, happiness, disappointed, unemotional, laziness, flowing of tears in the blood vessel.. All kinds of emotion shown to me. But i never stop, i am growing, one day, the habitat deformed, i no more remain balanced. I scared, this is my first time i left my home, the only one. <br /><br />"Dude, why u look so nervous? Just remain calm, we are here."A bigger "person" said to me. He has a weird look, i am transparent, but he was in brownish color. "Dun look at me like that, I am just a bit fat because i bring along chloride...hehe..burden higher..."<br /><br />We smiled, drop down, the speeding speed force me to let my hands go off my pals. I am alone, panic, disgraced to my naked body. Pass through thousands of others same habitat which still in cerulean color, I reached a place, a weird object shape like a big bird, with a straight "eyes" and hard "wings". I pass through it, his amazing speed, push towards me, i was no influenced, just felt a bit warm and polluted. I saw down, a red, brown with some green dots, on a big land. Was it? What is this? Food? New habitat? I wan to stop, but i cant, i keep dropping down, I saw a big balls, some sounds came out from there, thousands of small creature standing under the balloons, horray for the arrival. My family, and me, billions, limitless of us, keep dropping down, the farmer, took out his cloth, keep kissing us, waiting for century for the arrival of us. The people, with tie, with formal, with a headache emotion, pressing their head, running around, buying umbrella, scolding at us, run into a shelter, dunwan to let us have a nice touch with them. The people at the war place, cried, drag out their own family dead bodied. Hope that our cleanliness can help him clean out the blood, the bacteria. Then they can use the dead body to feed themselves. The tree God, happy to see us, welcoming us, however, we saw the tree God, we cried. Because of us, he is falling and dying. The greenish leaves become yellow, dried out, all because of our "fattiness"--chloride. But still, we are friends, always. <br /><br />My bone cracked suddenly. I saw my hands, legs, eyes, brains, all fall apart. People walking around, step on my organs, I didnt felt any pain, my pain nerve ad broken. I can only felt heat and cold. After one or 2 days, when i was sleeping, my father-"Sun", come to save us, all of our family. We evaporate, we raise, we fly, we laugh. I never died, I never miss, and i will see this cruel world, until his end....the end of the day.....Deshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11452950257077934079noreply@blogger.com0