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These few days were very down, moody and felt lonely. We quarreled, and she said we are in a very unstable condition. Again and again, finally, she said, dunwan ad... i was totally blank at that time..i try to tell myself, its just a joke, but it cant be in this situations. Its totally gone now. I trying my best to persuade her, i want her back...she just simply sms me and said no more ad...i try to drag our relationship for one more day, and she just keep said she is tired, what can i do? I cant force her anymore...the whole morning and afternoon i was thinking, what am I suppose to do...then i have come to a decision, if she really dunwan ad...even if u drag her back, it wont be a good thing anymore, it just become a burden. Yeah, i am thinking like this, and i decided to ask her one more question, the reason why she wan to break, if the reason is the place we stay, i wont allowed her to go. However, surprisingly, she answered me, i wan to fly, i wan freedom. Is this a good reason enuff for me? i asked myself. Yes it is. I have force her too much, its time to let go then.

I told myself, i wouldnt let a person who i love to go just like that, i want her back, surely do. But how? Until now i am still strengthless, i cant even go near her when she need me. I have to wait, wait for another 3 years until i go for work. Many people will not believe me or have faith in me, but i will wait, until i have the chance.

We break, but we still got communicate. She seem so happy, got problems still talk to me but not the others. I am greatful that she still so take care of me. She always push me to the others gals, haha..i didnt blame her, but i would rather choose her, why am i suppose to give others chance as myself haven giving myself a single chance to be with u again. The things i can give is limited, if she really find someone who can giv her in these few years, then i shall quit, silently, if not, i will want her back come to my side again. As "I love you".