Assignment

Today ICE test, sigh, damn hard! Duno how to do properly, perform very badly...sob sob...cuz i didnt revising very well though, cant blame other people =.= ....now start to do my dynamic assignment already, blur like hell also, the questions simply giv u some pictures and asked we all to make all the assumption ourselves...what the hell, i am totally blur with it....i try my best to think about the question one, but i think mostly they will end up wrongly...haiz i really have no talent in this science field i also duno why i will choose this course which make me so headache.

This assignment i need to pass up at friday ad, so have to make it fast and done it. If not no time ad....and then next week i have one chemistry test, wow it will be a nice nightmare for me as it is the hardest among all the subjects for me i think. I really beh tahan this chemistry it make my life so complicated LOL. No choice lo who call me want to become chemical engineering =.= . Choose wrong path again so moody =.=lll......

I end up my relationship with jiayeek, my first love. Reason of breaking, because of my small gas, make her no more feeling towards me anymore. I deserved it. Thanks for giving me such a nice memoriez between us, i will remember it always. Anyway, i still love you, Lee Jia Yeek. I hope if got chance we can be together again, but not for this study years ad. I canont giv u what u want. Really, we dun understand each other enuff. I hope God can giv me another chance to chase u when i work. But i wont force u or me to change our target of life cuz of opponent, cuz loving u is let u go for ur freedom and dream, cannot be too selfish. Well, i have to be clear, and one more time, I STILL LOVE LEE JIA YEEK although i am not her boyfriend anymore!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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Papa Roach

Here today

Gone today

Hurry up and wait



I'm never there

For you or me

Can't you read

The story of our lives?



Death to me

And life for you

Something isn't right



And I need some space

To clear my head

To think about my life



And I can't be alone



I just need some space

To clear my head

To think about my life

With or without you



We fight it out

We work it out

Give me some ti-i-ime

To unwind (x 2)



I must confess

I'm falling apart

Breaking your heart

Crying with you on the phone



We're walking

On thin ice

And I hope it doesn't break



I just need some space

To clear my head

To think about my life

With or without you



We fight it out

We work it out

Give me some ti-i-ime

To unwind



We fight it out

We work it out

Give me some ti-i-ime

With or with out you



Mile by mile

We're farther apart

And it's one empty bottle

And two broken hearts



Night after night

We are falling apart

Now it's two broken bottles

And four empty hearts



Decompression

Depression period

Decompression

Depression period



Decompression

Depression period

Decompression

Depression period



And I need some space

To clear my head

To think about my life

With or without you



I'm never there

For you or me

Can't you read

The story of our lives?

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12th March 2010

Today is friday, i woke up at morning. Today i skip all classes. Too boring for me. So didnt go. Tmr is maths test. I am still slagging around. No Mood to study. No mood to think. Juz wana play game. Recently cant chat nice with her. Duno why, maybe because of far distance relationship. Not like other people, they can see each other everyday, so they can happy dating. For me, i am suck in this. I hope i can crawl over this uni life, and when i start to work maybe i can live together with her. But she told me before she will be stay at her house. So, maybe i think our chance is limited to do that already.

Sigh, i felt quite lost during this semester. Relationship and homework make me dizzy. Why sometimes i do something for her she had no sense at her. And juz said i am busy, sorry cant entertain u. WTF! I No need u to entertain me, a couple is when the other one find u, u should be happy right? Now u think that sms me is entertain me only? If u sms with me not happy at all then what is the point now? Think properly la....swt...sometimes also duno how to explain to her, when wan explain then start quarrel, wth....never giv me a chance to say for myself de meh.......

If the condition remain like this, i think i need to find some way to solve this problem ad...if not happy with me, why dun we juz break and i let u go ad....jian song will suit u more better i think since he so near u and care about u...i am juz a jerk...sien nia...everyday like dunwan dunwan chat, when chat like very pek cek...i dun like this kind of feeling lar...tired...i wan be like lsat time, but i think it is impossible ad...should i let her go? or not? maybe i should.......

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Ulcer

Well, sunday i went back to genting klang, setapak again. As my camper life begin again for a after a week of chinese new year holidays. I bought 2 bus tickets, one for me, another one for cheeyan. We went back here at morning 11.50am. At that time, my mouth is ad having some minor ulcer. But my mum gave me a chinese medicine which called "西瓜霜", so i took it and bring it to here in case it become bigger wound or what. Yes, unfortunately, it had become serious and more serious. My whole mouth, include the place under the tongue, left side whole mouth and right side too, all full with wound, i can see white wound inside my mouth and when i saw it, i was totally jam because it is toooo many ad, i cant even calculate how many wound i have there in my mouth. I try to drink as much water as possible but it seem not to recover but more and more painful. So, at the tuesday, after my heat and mass lecture class, i gave up continue my class until 4pm, its ad very painful and i really need to see a doctor.

I went back to my condominium there, and i seek for a doctor. When he asked me to open my mouth and want to check on my wound, he was like:"Omg! how come so terrible!" Even a doctor would said like this. And then he gave me some medicine and antibiotic to take in after each of my meal. The doctor suggested me to use salt and put inside some warm water mix it and use it to wash the mouth, so that the salt water can help me to kill all the bacteria inside my mouth. But everytime i use the water to wash it, my tears are coming out, Its damn painful lols.

Now ad friday, its ad pass 3 days. "I am still alive", LOL, i haven died and the ulcer seem to recover 80% already. Now my problem is, saturday i am going to have an exam, but all my notes are left behind at taiping, i already asked my mum to pass it to me with post laju, but the postman saw i am not around and take it back to the main post office station ad. I had phoned the officer and asked them to bring back my notes on saturday, but that time my exam ad finish lu lols. So lucky kong fai borrow me some of his notes and that, i can still manage to survive. Its already week 6 at my second semester and i have no mood to study at all. I had no interested in all these subjects and now i AM TOTALLY HATE MY SUBJECTS. I had made some wrong decision ad. But i guess there is no turning back.

Recently i duno why i keep say something funny to dear, now everytime when i smsed her she seem not to be welcome me. I seldom see she smile and laugh at me ad. Maybe my words had hurted her alot. I am trying my best to let u happy, but juz sometime some opinions different make us very misunderstanding and confusing. I hope dear dun always so moody towards me, i know i am wrong, and i giv u my sincerity apology. Sorry dear and please forgive me. I duno what happen to us these few days, u was like busy around, and i was like seek too much of ur love maybe? But i think we shall not have any problem, maybe i think too much. These week had caused me a lot of problem and i am tired of it. Bad week i had. Sigh.

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22 Jan 2010

Well, on 18th Jan 2010, my uni open for trimester. I had prepare all my things before that day and went back here. Start my new semester again. Same like always, busy lecture and tutorials fill up all my time slot. The worst thing is all the 6 subjects are science subjects, i can imagine all the mathematics , theory, and formulas are waiting me this dumb dumb uni student to memories it. Headache, i don't want to be fail in any one of the subjects here. God bless me please.

Well, i duno what happened to my hand phone. The maxis company send a message to me and said that my JPN no. had error and asked me to phone them for further information. So i did phoned them and surprisingly, they told me that my hand phone no. is not under my name and they will close my hp. line if i didnt change the name to mine before 04/ 02/ 2010. So i phoned my mum and ask her to go to maxis center and settle the things for me. But the officers there told my mum that i canot change it since the name is not belong to me. So i had been force to change my hp. no i think. I think one day or two i will go to buy a new hp. no and register under my name. Why so weird that this no. does not belong to me!? Waste my time and money, somemore i ad get used to this no. ad. Suddenly wan me to change it. SO WEIRD!

Recently dear is having her final exam, well i wish her all the best. Sometimes i miss her and then sms her, but actually i prefer to let her be alone cuz i hope she can focus well and study well. Dunwan to disturb her. But night time dear wish me can find her as she also need some time to rest. I find her and we chat nicely and happily. I saw her blog i can find that dear is really do love about me. I am so happy when i read her blog, and i can know what was happening at her place and what she think about some problems and us. Well i did many stuff that cannot satisfied her, i can change and i hope she can giv me some chance and time too.

Almost reach CNY ad, i will be going back home, i really hope that i can meet up with dear at that time. Miss u~~

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Simply story

烛光晚餐。桌两边，坐了男人和女人。

　　“我喜欢你。”女人一边摆弄着手里的酒杯，一边淡淡地说着。

　　“我有老婆。”男人摸着自己手上的戒指。

　　“我不在乎，我只想知道，你的感觉。你，喜欢我吗？”

　　男人抬起头，打量着对面的女人。

　　24岁，年轻，有朝气，相当不错的年纪。

　　白皙的皮肤，充满活力的身体，一双明亮的，会说话的眼睛。

　　真是不错的女孩啊，可惜。

　　“如果你也喜欢我，我不介意作你的情人。”女人终于等不下去，追加了一句。

　　“我爱我妻子。”男人坚定地回答。

　　“你爱她？爱她什么？现在的她，应该已经年老色衰，见不得人了吧。否则，公司的晚宴，

怎么从来不见你带她来……”

　　女人还想继续，可接触到男人冷冷的目光后，打消了念头。

　　静……

　　“你喜欢我什么？”男人开口了。

　　“成熟，稳重，动作举止很有男人味，懂得关心人，很多很多。反正，和我之前见过的人不 同，你很特别。

　　“你知道三年前的我什么样子？”男人点了颗烟。

　　“不知道。我不在乎，即使你坐过牢。”

　　“三年前，我就是你现在眼里的那些普通男人。”男人没理会女人，继续说。

　　“普通大学毕业，工作不顺心，整天喝酒，发脾气。对女孩子爱理不理，还因为去夜总会找 小姐，被police抓过。”

　　“那怎么……”女人有了兴趣，想知道是什么让男人转变的。

　　“因为她？”

　　“嗯。”

　　“她那个人，好像总能看到事情的内在。教我很多东西，让我别太计较得失，别太在乎眼前的事，尽量待人和善。那时的我在她面前，就像少不更事的孩子。那时真的很奇怪，倔脾气的我 ，偏偏最听她的话。按照她说的，接受现实，我知道自己没用，就努力工作。那年年底，工作上 稍微有了起色，我们结婚了。”

　　男人弹了弹烟灰，继续说着。

　　“那时，真是苦日子。两个人，一张床，家里的家具也少得可怜。知道吗？结婚一年后，我才给她买了第一枚钻戒，存了大半年的钱呢。当然，是背着她存的。若她知道了，是肯定不让的 。”

　　“那阵子，因为烟酒弄得自己身体不好。大冬天的，她每天晚上睡前还要给我熬汤喝。那味 道，也只有她做得出。”

　　男人沉醉于回忆里，忘记了时间，只是不停地讲述着往事。

　　而女人，也丝毫没有打断的意思，静静地听着。

　　等男人注意到时间，已经晚上10点了。

　　“啊，对不起，没注意时间，已经这么晚了。”男人抱歉地笑了笑。

　　“现在，你可以理解嘛？我不可能，也不会，做对不起她的事。”

　　“啊，知道了。输给这样子的人，心服口服了！”女人无奈地摇了摇头。“不过我到了她的 年纪，会更棒的。”

　　“嗯。那就可以找到更好的男人。不是吗？”

　　“很晚了，家里的汤要冷了，我送你回去。”男人站起身，想送女人。

　　“不了，我自己回去可以了。”女人摆了摆手。“回去吧，别让她等急了。”

　　男人会心地笑了笑，转身要走。

　　“她漂亮嘛？”

　　“……嗯，很美。”

　　男人的身影消失在夜色中，留下女人，对着蜡烛，发呆。

　　男人回到家，推开门，径直走进卧室，打开了台灯。

　　沿着床边，他坐了下来。

　　“老婆，已经第四个了。干嘛让我变得这么好，好多人喜欢我呀。搞不好，我会变心呀。干 吗把我变得这么好，自己却先走了？我，我一个人，好孤单呀……”

　　男人哽咽地说着，终于泣不成声。

　　眼泪，一滴滴从男人的脸颊流下，打在手心里的相框上。昏暗的灯光中，旧照片里弥漫着的是已逝女子淡淡的温柔。

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3th Jan 2010

Well its new year now, so this saturday i am free and she is free also. I dunwan miss any chances that we can be together as when the time i go back, its will be quite a long time that we cannot meet each others. So i decided again i wan another dating.

This day morning i wake up at 530am, lol i cant sleep well as i always wake up at 400am cuz i need help my dad work. So today as usual i also wake up earlier and play some games. At 7am something i go prepare my things and wan depart ad. Maybe dear is too tired so i sms her that i want to come now, but she didnt reply me, Maybe over slepy? So i dun care i depart myself ad, hope that when i reached there she will be awake lol. But after that i have proved that i was wrong, she just now was bathing not sleeping. I am so silly.

So i reached there and found her new house XD. yeah i did it hahaha. i waited her and after that she fetched me go penang. Wow, i was so comfortable when i sit her car. haha...i duno why the pengajian will failed her so many times when the time she take the exam, but i think that she is good!!!!!! And dun say me hamsap, i found that dear like to wear short skirt, which show out her beutiful legs, OMG i was gonna crazy as dear legs is so pretty XD really one i didnt bluff =.=. I love it lol.....i am very hamsap zzzz

so she did bring me go her hostel, hmm, kinda old there and a bit dirty due to her housemate which is not responsible. Haiz, boys are always like that =.=. all is boys fault, hahahha. well i did not went upstair as there are somebody at there. So we just stay at bottom and i take a look on the surrounding, i can imagine during night it will be terribly scary as there are no light at all =.= since there are so many bangladash there it is dangerous to go outside alone at night...geli~~~

after that we went to gurney shopping and have a nice movie that is chipmonk!!!!!!! LOL it was so cute, however dear also watched before ad, haiz so wasted if we 2 also never watched before sure will be interesting LOL. I regret that i didnt buy a couple sit but sit seperately, dear hands need to be streth only can reach me so painful ... dam me.. i am so stupid....

HOHO, after movie dear bring me go beach, wow it was very nice since there are quite a long time i didt go beach ad!!!!! Well i hugged her waist and walk at the beach then we sit at the sand took some pic, aww i looked dam stupid and ugly in the pic =.= but nvm this is our memory i should appreciate it always LOL. Time goes by, our love are bond stronger. Love u....my wife yeek XD

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Penang trip

28th Dec 2009, yeah today we go penang have a one day trip. Early morning 800am i sit jeyson car with cby, bernard and me 4 person, gathered at xin rou house, then we move on to Jawi, which mean is my dear place, Sungai bakap, wow i am so excited LOL. Around 830am we reached there and we go find a restaurant which is famous of "cai kue" and "dang hun" lol, but it is really good taste man, just surrounding have too many flies make the environment a bit dirty. An uncle came to us and make some joke, duno why my friends them all cant get it and remain silence there which make the situation become very cold =.=. So i started to reply to that uncle, luckily i make the things warm again LOL. I am good at old man stuff =.=lll swt.

After that we went to penang bridge and cross over it. We went to Toy muzeum which is very impressive lol. So many toys at there and we have took some nice pictures at there. Hehe i will post it at the top so that u guys can see it and i can share with u all. After that we went to "zi le shi" have asam laksa there, long time i didnt went there and eat the laksa there ad, so very good taste and memorable lol. My friend bernard even finish it within 3 mins. WTF so fast!? Crazy person zzz.

After that our pro kenshiro which is qi sian want to makan penang char kue tiao, so we accompany him to find the stall, after we find it, walao we have to wait until like 1 hr 30 mins to eat a char kue tiao which cost us RM 6.50 !!!!! BUT IT WAS REALLY NICE the best char kue tiao i ever ate LOL.

So after that we went to QueenBay, hoho here is the climax ad, dear said she will come over and find me. But i waited at there for quite a long time and i become very nervous why she haven come yet, its been very late and weird, i begin to worry >.< i scare something happen i keep walking around, finally!!!!!!!! YeS i met her LOL. But unfortunately we have no place to go and keep walking around, so in the end we stood at a stall and stand there for almost 40 mins to make some hanger which have our name in the phone, i wan giv to her my name one, but she rejected it ! at first i was very angry but i try to control and turn my back to her, calm down myself and smile again. Phew it was close that i didnt moody =.=. I nearly burst when she dunwan take the name of mine. But still, it was my birthday presents, thanks dear, i still like it ^_^

SO after that we went to eat together with all my friends, we chat there for like 1 hr then we depart to go home. Before that, i propose that i wan to send her to carpark first, and i bluff her that i have a big gift wan to giv her. So she believe and let me go together with her, at the end we reached the car park but WTF why there is a car waiting her car to move out and wan to park in. So that mean i have a specatator here ad ! DAMN IT! NO CHOIC and i dun care so much ad As that thing is not a shameful thing! I put up my mind and walk straight knee down and "BOOM!" Yeah i did it! i wont said it here but it was the secret between me and my dear yeek.

I LOVE U!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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27th Dec 2009

This day is my birthday date, last time friends all used handphone to sms people greeting them happy birthday. But now change ad, all use facebook =.=, that mean if u dun have internet that day, u cant see any wishes from ur friends, weird right? lol...unfortunately, that day, my internet broken down, whole day cannot use it. SO got how many people greet me birthday or none at all i also duno. A peaceful day i have. Cuz nobody sms to me. Just some of them. One hands also can count all haha. But thanks to all who greet me, really thank you. I really appreciate ur wishes.

Well, some of my friends do celebrate together with me and cheeyan together as our birthday are close enuff to be celebrate. Old friends talking are so enjoyable although what we do is talking about people bad words. lol we are so cruel and sensitive. Never think of ourselves first before saying people. Haiz, not mature enuff. Well, i did celebrate with my family, they bring me go makan "ho liao", however due to that restaurant have too many customers, we end up with some nonsense dishes as the cheft also busy in cooking ad, so the standard sure lose abit. Abit dissapointed but nvm as long as the family are together.

Well, dear is the first one who wished me happy birthday, haha i remembered last year u said it the last one....naughty plan but it make me happy also lol....this year u are the first one...so surprisingly...thank you...^_^

Here are some pic on birthday of me and chee yan..

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